work sucks, i know

music: phones ringing
mood: disgruntled

yeahh haven't really felt like blogging much the past weeks. not even now, but i need something to alleviate the immense boredom. work. it figures.

soo.
-sheares hall camp was incredibly fun
-i re-re-joined facebook. hahahhahah

yeah i think that's pretty much everything.

OH. today, because i only start work at 12.30 (well i thought i was 12.30 but apparently it's supposed to be 12) i woke up at 8.30 and breakfasted with the mother. Decided it was still too early to get ready for work so i went back to bed, still in my cute reindeer pajamas! yeah then eventually dragged my lazy ass out of bed at 10.30. haha so cool.

and now i'm here. bleh. butbutbut

-5th driving lesson tomorrow HAHAHAHAHA
-'get smart' with peihui tomorrow
-dance stuffs tomorrow

-T3 exploration with the BAOWU on friday
-rag practice on friday

okay bye!

ah sais tae you

music:oceans-the format
mood:satisfied

10/5:,
we had vetting for rapture. i hope this year is a good year. go alumni! haha. and i so cannot hiphop. my defence: i'm chinese. i don't think H-I-P-H-O-P is written into our chinese DNA. pity. anywhoo. met yixiang and peihui for harold and kumar at freaking tampines. it was only after an hour plus bus ride home at midnight that i realised exactly how far tampines is from home. and even after the bus ride, i ended up at toa payoh, not HOME. but anyway. haha i love the racist bits in the movie--about the jews and afghan terrorists. and i visited shijie at work! missed her muchos (: ly f sq!

11/5:
Mother's day! i baked apple pie for my mommy. yeah believe it. lynette's finally domesticated. oh but i screwed up the lattice-weaving-pie-crust-shit. it was simply to complicated for me. and omfg i peeled,cored and sliced EIGHT apples. all eight of them and ended up with a few nicks. but i think my mommy liked it.

12/5:
PAYDAY. and BFF sorta surprised me by being in the area and available for lunch. haha telepathy much? subway and chocolate chip+double chocolate chip cookies. too cool. and haha she's so cute and random. OH. and OMG. at work there's was this mofo rude caller. NO ONE has ever so condescendingly called me lousy before. i wanted to just bitch slap that smirk (i imagine) off that smug pug-like face (again, i think this is what he looks like, it's only befitting). yeah. i guess it can be said that i tend to hold grudges. at least for as long as i can remember them.

13/5:
i've been reading 'trainspotting' by irvine welsh and it's taken me a week plus to get past the halfway mark. the scottish collequial is just so hard to decipher, but i'm slowly plowing through. it helps sometimes to read it out loud, but most times i end up in giggles at how ridiculous i sound, how decidedly un-scottish. lessons learnt: 1)fitba is football and 2)addiction is dangerous

for a chance to dance with stars

schmexy

music:sweet child o' mine-guns and roses
mood:perky

i've lost track of my days, is this what work does to you? a 12hour shift at work is no joking matter, i must have sent 1000 desperate pleas for rescue. please sign up for gmail and gmail chat with me, somebody, anybody? there are cute emoticons we could play around with :)

wed-
ding tai fung dinner with melmel! and haha yes. it was my first time there. i like their xiao long baobaos! and yes, we had a ton of gossip up for exchange.

us with our FIERCE looking ice-cream!

thurs-

work.

fri-

work. i think sometime this week i had a lot of disgruntled callers. but it must be my sexysweet voice that calmed them down. i mean, they thanked me properly at the end of it! like woah. oh and i traipsed down to bugis during lunch today. had no idea it was literally down the road! way cool.

sat-

ahhahahha. i went and permed my hair. omggg someone should have stopped me. it's so fucked up now. hahahaha. whatev.

i've been thinking-

i don't think i want to have children. i'm pretty sure im unable to love them unconditionally. and looking at my track record with pets/plants...not a good idea. and, i would hate to end up as a trophy wife obsessed with priming her trophy boy and girl.

AND i may have just realised, eyecandy ain't that cute afterall. eww :/

all you need is loveeee

music:all my loving-across the universe ost
mood:sleepy

-this song is complete cuteness (: real sweet stuff.

haha it seems like i'm forever sleepy. BUT in my defense, i swear my mind is wide awake and frisky (heh sounds funny) but my eyelids won't halt their downward droop.

anyway. across the universe. finally watched it. but haha got interrupted like 3 times. and dudeee some graphic scenes. well sorta, a boob here, a boob there. my virgin eyessssss. HAHA. but it was good. i like jim sturgess! and since i'm such a sucker for sappy movie cliches, i obviously gushed over the end---jude sang 'all we need is love' on this rooftop and lucy heard and recognised him from a block away and came running back. AWW. but it was cool how the they made the plot fit a collection of the beatles songs into a seamless MOVICAL (movie-musical hahha)

work has been horrendously hectic the past few days. and today! was my first 12 hr shift. omfg. i was dying just as the clock came round to 4pm. imagine my utter dismay when (after some time) i calculated that i had 5 1/2 hours to go. hahaha kinda comical really. and i swear, some callers are SO NEUROTIC PARANOID. why do you need my card no?! i'm just asking a few questions so why should i give you my card no?! why?! why do you need to verify me?! why?! dude freaking chill. standard procedure. tsk.


okay. then the free-er part of my days are spent doing random personality quizzes. like these:

You Are a Banana

You are mellow, easy going, and a total softie on the inside.
People find it really easy to get along with you. You suit most tastes.
And while you're very sweet, you're not boring or ordinary.
You have an attraction to the exotic, and you could show up anywhere... doing almost anything!
You are spirited, energetic, and a total kick to be around.
You're also quite funny. Your sense of humor is on the goofy side, and it fits you well.

You Are a Comma

,

You are open minded and extremely optimistic. You enjoy almost all facets of life. You can find the good in almost anything. You keep yourself busy with tons of friends, activities, and interests. You find it hard to turn down an opportunity, even if you are pressed for time. Your friends find you fascinating, charming, and easy to talk to. (But with so many competing interests, you friends do feel like you hardly have time for them.)

You excel in: Inspiring people

You get along best with: The Question Mark

rant (v)

music:rangers-a fine frenzy
mood:sleepy

maybe we don't want to be found
maybe we don't want to be found

thanks kris for this song! i really like this.

OMFG. i swear. the stupid CPF thingy is out to get all of our pays. it took me FOREVER to locate the opt out option for the medishield scheme and it wasn't where they said it would be! and all the while They were slowing draining my bank account of the hard earned cash. okay, maybe not exactly but i did think it was some huge conspiracy against me. They keep signing me up for shit without my permission, and then i have to go through all this trouble to opt out of the shit they signed me up for which takes up a lot of my preciously little time!

OH. and i've got another stalker. oh man. the dude gives me the creeps. interogative much? where is your office? what are your working hours? what is your extension number? what is your name? how do you spell it? what is your chinese name? how do you spell that? haha but before that 'he's such a stalker' thought it was the 'i bet he is a spy' thought. call me paranoid, but i really did think he was some secret service dude doing a background check on me and the company.

AND. i finished DEXTER season 1. dudeeeeee best series ever. omg i swear my heart literally stopped when i thought the ice truck killer was about to...but then dexter he...and they found out...and then the ice truck killer got...HAHA. spoiler.

yeahhhhhhh im sleepy. and aching from dance!

HEYS

music:i'm yours-jason mraz
mood:sleepy

OMGGGG. i've got like a billion and one things to say. but these top my list:

1.I FINALLY SAW MY BABY OSCAR! and he's grown so so much. but he's really naughty, it makes me :( when he keeps gnawing at me.

2.DEXTER is fucking gooddddddd.

Based on Jeff Lindsay's novels Darkly Dreaming Dexter and Dearly Devoted Dexter
this crime thriller follows Dexter Morgan. Dexter is a forensic blood spatter
expert for the Miami Dade Police Department. He is the main support for his
sister. He has a steady girlfriend, with two kids who adore him. He also has an
active "night life". Based on a code instilled in him by his foster father,
Harry, he hunts down people who have escaped justice and makes sure they don't
get away with a crime again.

okay, DEXTER is essentially this serial killer who's unbelievably cool. and i'm tired because i stayed up till 4am watching DEXTERRRRRR. it's really twisted, but such a total guilty pleasure.

3. good friday holiday! i like my job, but i don't like having to work :/

4. HEYS. heehee.

5.sleepover at clara's last saturday. i learnt how to mahjong! ..sorta. and muchos laughter makes for good times (:

raindropdead

music:she moves in her own way-the kooks
mood:tired

i love this song. haha the singer's accent is so cute. though i have no clue what he's singing about half the time.

it's not about your make-up
or how you try to shape up
to these tiresome paper dreams
paper dreams, honey

work's fun. i saw cute IT guy today. but damnit, my comp was in working order. still, maybe tomorrow...HAHA. but i'm so very stressed, especially when the calls start coming one after another, especially when my multi-tasking skills are at a near zero, especially...

joined kris at smu for dance yesterday and OMG. i was barely alive after WARM-freaking-UPS. like, pathetic much? and there was still 2 hours of tech and choreo to get through. but i survived, amazingly so. although, i'm aching pretty much all over.

and yeah that's all. i think.

i hate the rain. you can say it's soothing or whatever, but all i know is it gets into my shoes and skin. and then i'm cold inside out.

case update

one-zzzomg. A level's results on FRIDAY. which is tomorrow tomorrow. which is too soon. which is unbelievably scary. fredferkel.

two-juno was really really good. and baowu is really really strange.

three-work is strangely fun! although i keep forgetting schtuff. haha and shijie tells me to use my 'sexy' voice. hell yeah!

four-psych season two. pure, unadulterated joy.

om shanti shanti

music:be my escape-relient k
mood:happy

so i disappeared to malaysia for chinese new year but i'm back now. yay. anyway--short update or whatever.

+chinese new year goodies
+red packets
-the ang pao money goes directly to my university fund. i didn't even get to smell the new, crisp notes ):
-feeling like a stranger and awkward for a second with extended family
+but then everything becomes comfortable and we laugh and talk easy
-everyone asking about A's results. fuckkkkkk.

cause i've been housing all this doubt and insecurity

+me and my cousin finally talked after 3498461285 years
+i had my aunt's new puppy oscar for a day ((((((: he's my baby!
AWWWW.

-oscar belongs to my aunt who lives across the causeway ))))):
+spent most of my time watching season 3 of the office. sooo good
+HAHAH and we watched music&lyrics and i particularly liked the cora chick singing that buddha song "om shanti shanti" like wtf. but i think that entire scene was a social commentary on how hollywood has celebritised (new word,my word) religion. look at madonna and kabbalah. OR maybe it's purely a chick flick and not that high-brow.
+i've been reading ferociously for the past weeks and i've got an exciting new book--the picture of dorian gray
-i don't know what it is, but something's got my entire family extremely irritable with each other

+i've finally got my pay!

-it's only a part of it. tsk.

-and i start work AGAIN on thurs. bleh

+the miss lynette a lot (MiLAL) club's been set up with shijie as president! new members welcome. hahha.


so overall, i'd say chinese new year this year was pretty good, seeing as how there are more pluses than minuses. OM SHANTI SHANTI.

charm your way out

music:sixteen military wives-the decemberists
mood:elated

You Would Be a Pet Bird

You're intelligent and witty, yet surprisingly low maintenance.You charm people easily, and they usually love you a lot more than you love them.You resent anyone who tries to own or control you. You refuse to be fenced in. Why you would make a great pet: You're very smart and entertaining Why you would make a bad pet: You're not interested in being anyone's pet! What you would love about being a bird: Flying, obviously What you would hate about being a bird: Being caged

What Kind of Pet Would You Be?

haha. me and shijie are so cool. she's a puppy though! and that's much cuter than a stinking avian. eww.

AND WORK'S OVER. whee

stuffs.

music:don't look back in anger-oasis
mood:sleepy

i'm too tired to be coherent and blahblahblah..so point form:

-i'm still blinded by the whole view of this random lady's very white ass.

-this other lady actually clucked to call her husband over, and he actually heard her from 200m away. talk about hen-pecked. HAHAHAHHAH

-i finished 'vanishing acts' and realised i like novels where everything falls into place in the end, perfectly packaged and tied up with a neat little bow. it's a little reassuring, that everything will work out in the end.

-i think i'm pretty anti-social. lunching with "colleagues" is an awkward affair, particularly since all conversation is in chinese. i probably should have paid more attention during chinese lessons.

-RANT ALERT 1: apparently i'm not a girl enough. this OTHER lady asked which colour foundation she should use and i said hesitantly ivory something or other and she said annoyingly that that was too white a colour for her. LIKE HELLOOOO LADY DO YOU NEED A MIRROR?! your face IS white. and other colours would look freakish. tsk. sooo apparently i don't know anything about cosmetics and such. whateverrrrrrr.

-27 dresses is really good! i like katherine heigl. and james marden. and them together in the end (((: work would be sooo much better if i had eye candy ))):

-'i don't know' is the most over-used phrase for me because it means i don't have to think.

-i am gonna meditate on the picture of jared padalecki aka the cute sensitive dude from supernatural. maybe then i'll dream of him. heehee.

-RANT ALERT 2: i submitted this application thingy for this secondary school for relief teaching and i was rejected. but what pisses me off most is that it reads: dear shu ling, we are sorry to inform you that we do not have any vacancies for relief teachers. WTF. WHO IS SHU LING?!?!?!? growl. FINE I DON'T WANT TO BE RELIEVING YOUS ANYWAY.

-AND that colleague of mine said i was pretty because of my face shape. LIKE WHAT? what about my eyes? or other stuffs?!?!?! tsk.tsk.tsk.

okay, i'm done.

whine alert!

music:be sensible-jimmy eat world
mood:troubled

the peihui told me to update so here goes:

• my first instinct is to whine and bitch about my job but it seems to be all i ever do. euugh i'm such an annoying human.
• it sucks to be only just mediocre especially when there's so little room for people who are only just okay.
• i'm having a hard time separating the things i actually want from the things i know others want for me. except, i don't even have the slightest idea what i want.
• sometimes, i want to not be taken so seriously.

anyway, i had the strangest, freakiest dream ever that involved a person repeatedly yanking on my ponytail. like what?!?! i don't understand how my brain works. it seems like it never sleeps. bleh. all i want next christmas, is dreamless and uninterrupted sleep.

edit-big thankyous to ashmit for breakfast on sat, shije mau jun stephen for coming to visit me on sun!

weird people and weirder dreams

music:dismantle.repair-anberlin
mood:tired

8jan--
hahaha i think i'm pretty horrible at keeping secrets and surprises, but thankfully its shijie we were trying to surprise (i'm not implying anything!) so me and jun managed to successfully surprise her at work. and woahhhh i've never ever been to tampines mall before! so happening siazxxx. anyhow, we seoul-garden-ded after that...we make good chefs with incredibly innovative recipes that may or may not give you a tummy ache. heh.

9jan--
ice skating with jun, shijie, the himbo and my brother. haha me, jun and The Fishball had a little drawing competition while waiting for the slowpokes and jun definitely is the BEST artist EVER. anyhow. met keish and her class at the rink, of all places. CINDYYYYYYY. hoho.

10jan--
freaking work again. bleh. BUT i improved from last thurs although still managing to fall below my quota. hey, it takes skill okay! oh, but hahahha last night, i dreamt my mother was this tyrant and everyone hid from her in this secret annex except they wouldn't let me in simply because she was my mother which is completely unfair but then i finally proved my innocence and they let me in. wow longest sentence ever.

doesn't it suck when you think you know this person and in the
next minute see a complete stranger?

hey, guess what. WORK TOMORROW!

work fricking sucks.

music:feeling this-blink 182
mood:tired

HAHA. how ironic. im feeling OLD now, with itunes playing 'feeling this'. i never thought it would suck to hit 18, or even-dare i say it-19 this year. things that make me feel old:

1) work.
shit, the adults weren't kidding when they said work is helluva worse than school. if it weren't for the money...i keep chanting in my head:paydaypaydaypayday. bleh. and srsly. aunties and ah mas need to learn to have a little respect for us poor promoters here! it's really a humbling job. note: you don't have to completely ignore us. but thanks to clement, leilei and peewee for visiting me and buying a box or two of hairdye!
2)dance.
jazz class today with manda,shijie,mau,vk,keisha. it was pretty good but it appears that i'm so totally out of shape! my arms are trembling from today's class and it's a pretty safe bet i'll be aching tomorrow!

anyway. other stuff happened--
2jan:met up with the BFF kisha after job training to catch up, watch i am legend and exhange belated xmas gifts. oh yeah and our little book club. it's so funny how we both cringed and cried at the same moments (:
3-6jan: work ))))))))): but! breakfasts with mel and on sunday with baowu/keewei made the days start off great!
today: spring cleaning in my room. at the end of it (it took me a grand total of 3.5hours) i had 5 trash bags to show for my efforts. it's scary how much can accumulate in 4 years--cobwebs, junk, memories.