whine alert!

music:be sensible-jimmy eat world
mood:troubled

the peihui told me to update so here goes:

• my first instinct is to whine and bitch about my job but it seems to be all i ever do. euugh i'm such an annoying human.
• it sucks to be only just mediocre especially when there's so little room for people who are only just okay.
• i'm having a hard time separating the things i actually want from the things i know others want for me. except, i don't even have the slightest idea what i want.
• sometimes, i want to not be taken so seriously.

anyway, i had the strangest, freakiest dream ever that involved a person repeatedly yanking on my ponytail. like what?!?! i don't understand how my brain works. it seems like it never sleeps. bleh. all i want next christmas, is dreamless and uninterrupted sleep.

edit-big thankyous to ashmit for breakfast on sat, shije mau jun stephen for coming to visit me on sun!