whine alert!

music:be sensible-jimmy eat world
mood:troubled

the peihui told me to update so here goes:

• my first instinct is to whine and bitch about my job but it seems to be all i ever do. euugh i'm such an annoying human.
• it sucks to be only just mediocre especially when there's so little room for people who are only just okay.
• i'm having a hard time separating the things i actually want from the things i know others want for me. except, i don't even have the slightest idea what i want.
• sometimes, i want to not be taken so seriously.

anyway, i had the strangest, freakiest dream ever that involved a person repeatedly yanking on my ponytail. like what?!?! i don't understand how my brain works. it seems like it never sleeps. bleh. all i want next christmas, is dreamless and uninterrupted sleep.

edit-big thankyous to ashmit for breakfast on sat, shije mau jun stephen for coming to visit me on sun!

music:tie a rope-the format
mood:accomplished (finished my geepoo essay!)

SATURDAY
went rollerblading on saturday afternoon with the usual people (cough keisha) -manda, mau, shijie. it was fun but kinda tiring. our lack of stamina showed rather pitifully. AND. shijie got sunburnt while nothing happened to me. &($*&! when i'm just as white as she is! manda and i dyed our hair a passion mahogony that doesn't show up at all, with mau and shijie as our professional hair peoples (yeah stylists i know). then went for the NUS dance reflections. 'despise me if you dare', but i thought the swan park item was really cute! yes they were reminiscent of something else...but its quirky and fun on its own. needless to say, zaki and zaini's items were pretty much the stand out items--opening and finale.

TODAY
haha. i had the weirdest dream last night. maybe its my preoccupation with getting tanned skin, but i dreamt i was badly sunburnt. damn. for a split second i was seriously delirious with joy. or something. then i magically morphed into darth vader confessing all my sins to a moss-covered wall. i don't know about you, but i'm all admiration for my brain.

-erps. i think i'm a really bad person. don't trust me :/

also, i really need to start making decisions for myself. i say we start with deciding what to eat for the next meal. baby steps.

so you run away for no apparent reason
cause you and i are changing with the seasons
i might have a little obsession with the format, all over again.