go shawty

music:sway-the perishers
mood:tired

so. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to keisha, mel , my brother and i. the morning itself i was pleasantly surprised by cake at my doorstep. obviously i stood at the door with my mouth agape for a good one minute. maybe. soo unglam. anyways. a BIG THANKYOU to xuanting BFF, BAOWU, rachhhh, peewee, clar-rahhh. then later met the og peoples at swensens, followed by a little shopping and movie. then had dinner with ah ting and watched secret. jay chou at his finest, only not really. it was unbelievably cheesy! zzzomg.

the cake that gave me diarrhoea for 20 days. haha kidding. thanks BAOWU. it was surprisingly yummy and edible :)

flowers that will never die!

i heart babies. don't they just make you melt? this little thing was what i went to KL for. oh and it was precisely on the coach to KL when i realised i'd grown up. i was bored 5 mins into the cartoon sequel of sleeping beauty! pretty good ay.

--ooh. and i finally read 'fight club' by chuck palahniuk. it was disturbing but so good. the twist at the end totally blew my mind. i want to watch the movie. anddd despite the graphic violence, sex and what-not, the sappy romantic in me sees a love story embedded within:

"It's not love or anything," Marla shouts, "but I think I like you,
too."
One minute.
Marla likes Tyler.
"No, I like you," Marla shouts. "I know the difference."

do the stars gaze back?

music:romeo & juliet-the killers
mood:happy

so. i hate how it's bio p3 on monday when i haven't touched the syllabus in EONS. which means now's a good time to start as any. mmphff.

open house today and the dancers went back to look-see. apparently we are pretty convincing as sec4s. too cool. we danced/jumped a little in the teeny studio. i miss it now! me and keish were surprised by cake!

3 days to....!
heh.

then we crystal jade-ded. xiao long bao was bleh though :( omg. STARDUST was so good. nothing like a happy ending to make you feel all warm and fuzzy inside :)

warning: cheesefest
I can't do the talk like they talk on tv
And I can't do a love song like the way its meant to be
I cant do everything but I'd do anything for you
I cant do anything except be in love with you

I said I love you like the stars above
I'll love you till I die
There's a place for us, you know the movie song

-altogether now: awww.

just rain on me

music:my saving grace-armor for sleep
mood: mmff :(

• i understand but it doesn't make it feel any better.
• i'm second-guessing myself

this is so primary school -.-

i don't knowwwwwwwww.

on a side note, my brother's being a complete A-HOLE. he's confiscated my
remote for the air-con (wtf?!) and it's uncomfortably warm even with the
fan on.

i can cook!

music:big casino-jimmy eat world
mood:bored






top: mel and i made dinner for ourselves. a full three-course meal. for real. soup, salad and pasta.
middle: cool pasta shapes! car, plane, train, motorcycle. we're too cool.
bottom: haha just a subtle reminder for myself. to STAY AWAKE. it works :)

i've only just officially hit the halfway mark. meh. many more days to go :/

emoticon :(

music:left and leaving-the weakerthans
mood:harried

my city's still breathing (but barely it's true)
through buildings gone missing like teeth
the sidewalks are watching me think about you
sparkled with broken glass
I'm back with scars to show
back with the streets I know
will never take me anywhere but here
the stain in the carpet
this drink in my hand
the strangers whose faces I know
we meet here for our dress-rehearsal to say
"I wanted it this way"
wait for the year to drown
spring forward, fall back down
I'm trying not to wonder where you are
all this time lingers, undefined
someone choose who's left and who's leaving
memory will rust and erode into lists of all that you gave me:
a blanket, some matches, this pain in my chest
the best parts of Lonely, duct-tape and soldered wires
new words for old desires
and every birthday card I threw away
I wait in 4/4 time
Count yellow highway lines that you're relying on to lead you home

r4nd0m

music:ruthless-something corporate
mood:worried

-i love something corporate. i could definitely listen to them endlessly. and maybe i will :)

-it sounds really stupid but i probably overanalyze way too much, and hate for others to hate me. is that low self-esteem? or just my obnoxiously large ego.

-i'm embarrassingly confused about my z's and s's. i use them interchangably, and wrongly too. english crash course 101 please!

-2weeks. not long or short enough. there's so much studying that needs to be done, yet my ADD wants A's to just be over and done with.

-am i a nerd if chemistry seems to be more fun than it should?

-i really should be on a hiatus like everyone else.

-i'm constantly adding to my 'after-A's-when-i-actually-start-living-to-do-list'.

-i really should be studying :/

exam-obsessed

music:the saddest song-the ataris
mood:stressed. haha

-my weekend was kinda ehhh :(
-i'm really such a bad person. but i should get points readded if i admit it right?
-i'm possibly the biggest procrastinator alive
-whining's kinda my thing now
-studying with jolene tomorrow!

when
all
we
know
is
falling
.

exams should just start and end now. ughh.

braindrain

music:99-fightstar

mood:tired

ever feel like your head might just implode with all the thoughts racing through at 300km/h? yeahhh it doesn't feel too pretty. it's just...everything. and it gives me a head-ache :/

anywhoo. met up with ashmit on saturday. it was fun, army sounds a lot more interesting than it's sometimes made out to be. but i bet being called for the malaysian national service would blow. i don't even understand a word of malay. and i'm pretty sure 'please don't step on the grass' wouldn't be applicable anywhere. and yeah, i still can't wrap my head round the whole 18 and married thing. evidently i'm not that much of a romantic.

HAPPY 18TH KISHA YEO XUANTING!

heh. i hope it gets better :)

anddd i need to give you your super useful present.

she's too cute!

aside:i hate the feeling of feeling swamped. and that sounded really funny.

music:tie a rope-the format
mood:accomplished (finished my geepoo essay!)

SATURDAY
went rollerblading on saturday afternoon with the usual people (cough keisha) -manda, mau, shijie. it was fun but kinda tiring. our lack of stamina showed rather pitifully. AND. shijie got sunburnt while nothing happened to me. &($*&! when i'm just as white as she is! manda and i dyed our hair a passion mahogony that doesn't show up at all, with mau and shijie as our professional hair peoples (yeah stylists i know). then went for the NUS dance reflections. 'despise me if you dare', but i thought the swan park item was really cute! yes they were reminiscent of something else...but its quirky and fun on its own. needless to say, zaki and zaini's items were pretty much the stand out items--opening and finale.

TODAY
haha. i had the weirdest dream last night. maybe its my preoccupation with getting tanned skin, but i dreamt i was badly sunburnt. damn. for a split second i was seriously delirious with joy. or something. then i magically morphed into darth vader confessing all my sins to a moss-covered wall. i don't know about you, but i'm all admiration for my brain.

-erps. i think i'm a really bad person. don't trust me :/

also, i really need to start making decisions for myself. i say we start with deciding what to eat for the next meal. baby steps.

so you run away for no apparent reason
cause you and i are changing with the seasons
i might have a little obsession with the format, all over again.

music:coming home-city and colour
mood:satisfied

our 6-hour-pride&prejudice-marathon that was supposed to enhance our understanding of the text. key word: supposed to. i just basically spent the whole time swooning over the Darcy/Elizabeth romance and criticising the actors, as well as pointing out the excessive amount of cleavage on display. i love charlene's condo! ooh im sooo gonna learn the cockney accent and be all brit-eesh and posh. innit'

i think we look kindaaaa alike. which is terribly scary.

we're all still kids at heart. comforting, no?

today was fun (:

on a side note, i want a piglet for a pet, to love and cuddle. i think 'kitty kat' will be such a rockin' name for my baby pig. no?

music:stay awake-all time low
mood:i've got the munchies!

in short--

so. prelim's is almost over, with just biology left on monday. yay. although, it was really over for me after math P2 on wednesday.

and thursday was spent on supernatural. haha. guilty as charged. well i've finally finished season2, and im sooo looking forward to season3. meanwhile i've psych to tide me over. teevee is my addiction, unabashedly.

if 'dedication takes a lifetime but dreams only last for a night',
i should probably stay awake.

music:check yes juliet-we the kings
mood:bloated

it's funny how my toes can touch the swimming pool floor with my chin safely above the water now, when 11 years ago i almost drowned at that very same spot.
it's a little comforting to know how much i've grown. i feel like i should be able to tilt my head back, stare up at the azure sky ahead and not have to worry about anything.
but there's a whole future to work out. and then i feel like i'm 6 years old all over again.

likeeee i should be studying my ass off right about now.

run
baby
run.

-edit:no wonder i'm bloated.my tummy's threatening to explode with gas and my dad's down with food poisoning. stupid japanese restaurant. sashimi was good though.

music:iron in the backseat-daphne loves derby
mood:refreshed

one word: supernatural. haha friday and sunday pretty much spent with eyes glued to the tv screen. i hear it's not too healthy, that much teevee. which may explain my inability to sleep due to the constant mental replay of scenes from the show at night. oh wells. we've all got our fixes.

ooh and i make a pretty kickass waitress, spent saturday helping out at my aunt's cafe.

soo monday spells start the of furious revision. here we go :/

call us out on our mistakes
call them all just fun and games
we act and we act all over again
but it's all the same

music:six feet under the stars-all time low

mood:perky

first up- happy 18th nietz! good god girl. it's been a whirl wind grand total of 5 years knowing you. granted, not all five were spent in constant company with each other but the distance makes the heart grow fonder. or something. Best Friends Forever. totally. haha. and guess what. expect me in canada sometime next year (: i hope it's not so cold when i get there!

haha remember our crepes? cool shit yo'

and we looked so young back in year8. guess we've changed a lot since huh.

ps: i sent you a really cool e-card. the real card via snail mail's gonna have to wait a while. i'll make sure i get it to you before my birthday. haha

anddd we've hit the september hols. supernatural marathon! in between study breaks of course. i contribute it to stress (whatever), but i'm rolling my eyes at everyone and everything way too often. i should probably stop especially since my eyeballs feel a little loose around their sockets.

but there's room for two

six feet under the stars

coolios.
ch-ch-ch-check it out.
my new layout signalling my absence till after prelims,
hopefully.

music:she doesn't get it-the format
mood:sleepy

-i have self-imposed a ban on the computer, but now is just an exception--a break i tell myself. it feels so unreal that prelims are only days away. fuckityfuck :/

-i hope xinEEE!'s living it up for the rest of us holed up because of the looming exams! lucky duck.

-PHANG KEE WEI is the bestest friend ever. there you go. maybe now you will turn up when you google yourself again. cough-narcissistic-cough.

-i miss dance and peoples :(

-sunday hotcakes breakfast with BFF! can't wait.

music:flourescent adolescent-the arctic monkeys
mood:grumpy

-gotta love this song. gotta love the brits innit'
-organic chemistry sucks ass
-2 weeks to prelims and im nowhere near getting ready
-doesn't quite help that i've lit essay to do! what are the uses of letters?!
-anddd here i am, lurking around on the internet scavenging for new songs. tsk, lynette, tsk!
-i'm feeling very flushed right now. but i know i won't fall sick. (i hope)

music:dear maria-all time low
mood:fatigued

yeah i've been gone for awhile. but here i am again with 1)a new phone, and 2)a weekend story to tell.


1)i ditched my loyal sony (well not so much as the stupid joystick was temperamental) for a prettiful samsung. its ULTRA slim and slides so i was pretty much sold. still trying to figure out how to work it though. haha funny story:was in the library when devanshi called and while trying to accept the call i ended up putting her on the loud speaker which ensued in a too-loud-HELLO-for-the-library.


2)the weekend really starts with friday and ends with saturday. so throughout school on friday i was kinda in a moral dilemna, moral because it makes it sound all the more interesting and me, morally conscious. it was between clubbing with friends visiting from america or immersing myself in organic chemistry. i decided, eventually, after much hemming and hawing to do the former. anyway, after school went to meet BFF! couldn't really do much inbetween afterschool and math tuition so we had lunch and walked/talked. it was good, catching up. can't wait for our study time next week!

so. rushed home then down after tuition. melissa got bounced twice and was on the verge of giving up when her third time was a charm thanks to xinyi and friends. sent melissa home before going down to mos with michelle. and woah. house/trance was such a virgin experience. it was a really stark departure from the usual r&b/hiphop. anyhow. made it home at around 4 and we sat and talked a bit before she going to meet her 'lover'. crashed into bed only to wake 2 hours later to meet manda for breakfast.

subway foiled our breakfast plans so we ended up in coffee bean and shijie joined soon after. we're such lazy bums we ditched our rollerblading plans for the bicycles. its really nice cycling along the beach/waterfront! cycled for 2 hours then had a ginormous lunch at the hong kong cafe which brought back many many scrumptious memories of HK. planned trips to take after As. haha can't wait! shijie and i then went to millenia walk, coffee club to STUDY. haha by that time i was pretty much dazed with only 2 paltry hours of sleep and some alcohol still in my system. left too early for dinner with family and some peoples (slightly distant relatives). dinner was yum but dragged on too fricking late. this time, i swear i was REELING with fatigue. not good. eventually made it into bed at 1030. sleep at last!


shitfuck. prelims ONLY a meagre 3 weeks away. when overseas acceptance rests on those grades, it gets a little worrying that i'm not already studying my brains out. a little.

music:must have done something right-relient k
mood:sleepy

short update:-
learning fest was okayyyy. i learnt how to balloon sculpt though, a pretty mean feat considering...yeah. i managed to twist the balloons into puppies and flowers without once popping the balloons! hiphop was alright, guess i can now truly call myself the 15th member of keisha/vk's dance. hah. and eng wah cinematic experience was blah boring except for hairy potty.

speaking of which, freaking everyone's reading the deathly hallows. okay hah. im no exception. but seriously. harry potter practically screams from every single corner, books, posters, magazines. euugh. even music. its hilarious really: harry and the potters, the moaning myrtles, MC Dawlish, we-who-must-not-be-named...and the list of wizard rock bands simply goes on. soo this has been pretty much my major source of entertainment on the internet this whole week. good times fo' sho.

music:island-the starting line
mood:nostalgic

just a keep a hold on me don't let go
if you float away
if you float away
waiting too long for a ship to come
don't you float away
don't you float away


so. rapture'07:

it was a blast really.

XINYI! we managed to pull off our item! yay for us :)

and yet tears were still shed, not because we came to the end of the performance but because it seemed like the last time we would dance together. that realization really got my waterworks going as i thought about the countless afternoons and nights spent on the cc stage,in front of the GO,in the puny studio of ours. i thought of the long trips on the train/bus to performance venues, the hours spent backstage just fooling around.

it's kind of crazy just to think about all the (unlikely yet strong)
friendships formed in the course of one and a half years.

we might still go on dancing separately, elsewhere, but i'm really going to miss dancing with this special (some more than others! read:retarded) group of people :(

i ♥ the dancers!

on a sidenote, post-rapture=loads of work to be done. pooey.