HOLYDAYS

music:kiss kiss-chris brown

mood:dog tired

chiang mai

whee. i love chiang mai! with food+shopping so cheap, who wouldn't? plus, the weather was just right for me, not too hot and not too cold either. but i'll let the pictures speak for themselves.

thailand's unique form of transportation, the tuk-tuk. &somehow, our family of 4 managed to squeeze into the backseat made to seat 2 comfortably. woah.

tamarind village. i think its so pretty how the 2 rows of bamboo curve gently towards each other.

the gay parade. they were actually willing to sing and dance if we paid them.

me and lil marky boy at the orchid farm. heehee he's so cute, all of him!

he's bonding with the baby elephant! isn't that so aww.

with the hill tribe children. that's their playground. i don't think they need themeparks and rollercoasters if they have that in their 'backyard'!

Mok's birthday

happy 18th mok! it was held at the martini firm, which would explain why there were so many different martinis. haha i only realised it much later. KRIS PICTURES!

Ladies night

ehhh.i felt so cheated. turns out eve of public holiday=no ladies night+full house at almost everywhere! bleh. but finally, at like 1, xinyi mau shijie jun and me ended up at butterfactory with a bunch of other random people. and omgggg all of us died, except for that crazy xinyi of course. i was actually sleeping by the road at like 6 in the morning!

yeahhhh. i need a job, fast.

cheer up, emo kid

music:cancer-my chemical romance
mood:tired

so. my chemical romance tonight. call them scene or emo or whatever, but i like them. and because of something that happened earlier today, when they played cancer and helena ("the funeral song"), it felt so fucking good. &ray toro is AMAZING.

but whatever. i need to pack.

prom drama queen

music:all of this for you-sevenglory
mood:sleepy

so prom was pretty fun. well not the actual thing itself, but the pre/post part of prom night. i definitely loved just sitting in the salon chair while my make up and hair are being done. yeah i'm a total girly girl, so sue me. and then of course clubbing! felt really good, especially after such a long time (: heh. and OH. manda-my true friend was crowned prom queen! soo cool. i love you true friend! anywhoo pics below:



keewei,me,mel


me,devanshi,keewei in the hotel room


mau and me. HAPPY 18th MAU! thanks for acting surprised! haha. we tried to keep the cake hidden, but apparently not good enough.


keewei and me at mos

and HORRORS of horrors. i got my hair CUT & COLOURED. now i looking like a fricking ah lian with SHORT hair. bleh. on top of that, i spent the weekend with some korean drama, bawling my eyes out. like what?! i gross myself out sometimes.

yeahhhh. and im off to chiang mai on wed, with no clue when i'll be back. its either the 15, or 16, or 17. heh. good fun.

go shawty

music:sway-the perishers
mood:tired

so. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to keisha, mel , my brother and i. the morning itself i was pleasantly surprised by cake at my doorstep. obviously i stood at the door with my mouth agape for a good one minute. maybe. soo unglam. anyways. a BIG THANKYOU to xuanting BFF, BAOWU, rachhhh, peewee, clar-rahhh. then later met the og peoples at swensens, followed by a little shopping and movie. then had dinner with ah ting and watched secret. jay chou at his finest, only not really. it was unbelievably cheesy! zzzomg.

the cake that gave me diarrhoea for 20 days. haha kidding. thanks BAOWU. it was surprisingly yummy and edible :)

flowers that will never die!

i heart babies. don't they just make you melt? this little thing was what i went to KL for. oh and it was precisely on the coach to KL when i realised i'd grown up. i was bored 5 mins into the cartoon sequel of sleeping beauty! pretty good ay.

--ooh. and i finally read 'fight club' by chuck palahniuk. it was disturbing but so good. the twist at the end totally blew my mind. i want to watch the movie. anddd despite the graphic violence, sex and what-not, the sappy romantic in me sees a love story embedded within:

"It's not love or anything," Marla shouts, "but I think I like you,
too."
One minute.
Marla likes Tyler.
"No, I like you," Marla shouts. "I know the difference."

do the stars gaze back?

music:romeo & juliet-the killers
mood:happy

so. i hate how it's bio p3 on monday when i haven't touched the syllabus in EONS. which means now's a good time to start as any. mmphff.

open house today and the dancers went back to look-see. apparently we are pretty convincing as sec4s. too cool. we danced/jumped a little in the teeny studio. i miss it now! me and keish were surprised by cake!

3 days to....!
heh.

then we crystal jade-ded. xiao long bao was bleh though :( omg. STARDUST was so good. nothing like a happy ending to make you feel all warm and fuzzy inside :)

warning: cheesefest
I can't do the talk like they talk on tv
And I can't do a love song like the way its meant to be
I cant do everything but I'd do anything for you
I cant do anything except be in love with you

I said I love you like the stars above
I'll love you till I die
There's a place for us, you know the movie song

-altogether now: awww.

just rain on me

music:my saving grace-armor for sleep
mood: mmff :(

• i understand but it doesn't make it feel any better.
• i'm second-guessing myself

this is so primary school -.-

i don't knowwwwwwwww.

on a side note, my brother's being a complete A-HOLE. he's confiscated my
remote for the air-con (wtf?!) and it's uncomfortably warm even with the
fan on.

i can cook!

music:big casino-jimmy eat world
mood:bored






top: mel and i made dinner for ourselves. a full three-course meal. for real. soup, salad and pasta.
middle: cool pasta shapes! car, plane, train, motorcycle. we're too cool.
bottom: haha just a subtle reminder for myself. to STAY AWAKE. it works :)

i've only just officially hit the halfway mark. meh. many more days to go :/

emoticon :(

music:left and leaving-the weakerthans
mood:harried

my city's still breathing (but barely it's true)
through buildings gone missing like teeth
the sidewalks are watching me think about you
sparkled with broken glass
I'm back with scars to show
back with the streets I know
will never take me anywhere but here
the stain in the carpet
this drink in my hand
the strangers whose faces I know
we meet here for our dress-rehearsal to say
"I wanted it this way"
wait for the year to drown
spring forward, fall back down
I'm trying not to wonder where you are
all this time lingers, undefined
someone choose who's left and who's leaving
memory will rust and erode into lists of all that you gave me:
a blanket, some matches, this pain in my chest
the best parts of Lonely, duct-tape and soldered wires
new words for old desires
and every birthday card I threw away
I wait in 4/4 time
Count yellow highway lines that you're relying on to lead you home

r4nd0m

music:ruthless-something corporate
mood:worried

-i love something corporate. i could definitely listen to them endlessly. and maybe i will :)

-it sounds really stupid but i probably overanalyze way too much, and hate for others to hate me. is that low self-esteem? or just my obnoxiously large ego.

-i'm embarrassingly confused about my z's and s's. i use them interchangably, and wrongly too. english crash course 101 please!

-2weeks. not long or short enough. there's so much studying that needs to be done, yet my ADD wants A's to just be over and done with.

-am i a nerd if chemistry seems to be more fun than it should?

-i really should be on a hiatus like everyone else.

-i'm constantly adding to my 'after-A's-when-i-actually-start-living-to-do-list'.

-i really should be studying :/

exam-obsessed

music:the saddest song-the ataris
mood:stressed. haha

-my weekend was kinda ehhh :(
-i'm really such a bad person. but i should get points readded if i admit it right?
-i'm possibly the biggest procrastinator alive
-whining's kinda my thing now
-studying with jolene tomorrow!

when
all
we
know
is
falling
.

exams should just start and end now. ughh.

braindrain

music:99-fightstar

mood:tired

ever feel like your head might just implode with all the thoughts racing through at 300km/h? yeahhh it doesn't feel too pretty. it's just...everything. and it gives me a head-ache :/

anywhoo. met up with ashmit on saturday. it was fun, army sounds a lot more interesting than it's sometimes made out to be. but i bet being called for the malaysian national service would blow. i don't even understand a word of malay. and i'm pretty sure 'please don't step on the grass' wouldn't be applicable anywhere. and yeah, i still can't wrap my head round the whole 18 and married thing. evidently i'm not that much of a romantic.

HAPPY 18TH KISHA YEO XUANTING!

heh. i hope it gets better :)

anddd i need to give you your super useful present.

she's too cute!

aside:i hate the feeling of feeling swamped. and that sounded really funny.

music:tie a rope-the format
mood:accomplished (finished my geepoo essay!)

SATURDAY
went rollerblading on saturday afternoon with the usual people (cough keisha) -manda, mau, shijie. it was fun but kinda tiring. our lack of stamina showed rather pitifully. AND. shijie got sunburnt while nothing happened to me. &($*&! when i'm just as white as she is! manda and i dyed our hair a passion mahogony that doesn't show up at all, with mau and shijie as our professional hair peoples (yeah stylists i know). then went for the NUS dance reflections. 'despise me if you dare', but i thought the swan park item was really cute! yes they were reminiscent of something else...but its quirky and fun on its own. needless to say, zaki and zaini's items were pretty much the stand out items--opening and finale.

TODAY
haha. i had the weirdest dream last night. maybe its my preoccupation with getting tanned skin, but i dreamt i was badly sunburnt. damn. for a split second i was seriously delirious with joy. or something. then i magically morphed into darth vader confessing all my sins to a moss-covered wall. i don't know about you, but i'm all admiration for my brain.

-erps. i think i'm a really bad person. don't trust me :/

also, i really need to start making decisions for myself. i say we start with deciding what to eat for the next meal. baby steps.

so you run away for no apparent reason
cause you and i are changing with the seasons
i might have a little obsession with the format, all over again.

music:coming home-city and colour
mood:satisfied

our 6-hour-pride&prejudice-marathon that was supposed to enhance our understanding of the text. key word: supposed to. i just basically spent the whole time swooning over the Darcy/Elizabeth romance and criticising the actors, as well as pointing out the excessive amount of cleavage on display. i love charlene's condo! ooh im sooo gonna learn the cockney accent and be all brit-eesh and posh. innit'

i think we look kindaaaa alike. which is terribly scary.

we're all still kids at heart. comforting, no?

today was fun (:

on a side note, i want a piglet for a pet, to love and cuddle. i think 'kitty kat' will be such a rockin' name for my baby pig. no?

music:stay awake-all time low
mood:i've got the munchies!

in short--

so. prelim's is almost over, with just biology left on monday. yay. although, it was really over for me after math P2 on wednesday.

and thursday was spent on supernatural. haha. guilty as charged. well i've finally finished season2, and im sooo looking forward to season3. meanwhile i've psych to tide me over. teevee is my addiction, unabashedly.

if 'dedication takes a lifetime but dreams only last for a night',
i should probably stay awake.

music:check yes juliet-we the kings
mood:bloated

it's funny how my toes can touch the swimming pool floor with my chin safely above the water now, when 11 years ago i almost drowned at that very same spot.
it's a little comforting to know how much i've grown. i feel like i should be able to tilt my head back, stare up at the azure sky ahead and not have to worry about anything.
but there's a whole future to work out. and then i feel like i'm 6 years old all over again.

likeeee i should be studying my ass off right about now.

run
baby
run.

-edit:no wonder i'm bloated.my tummy's threatening to explode with gas and my dad's down with food poisoning. stupid japanese restaurant. sashimi was good though.

music:iron in the backseat-daphne loves derby
mood:refreshed

one word: supernatural. haha friday and sunday pretty much spent with eyes glued to the tv screen. i hear it's not too healthy, that much teevee. which may explain my inability to sleep due to the constant mental replay of scenes from the show at night. oh wells. we've all got our fixes.

ooh and i make a pretty kickass waitress, spent saturday helping out at my aunt's cafe.

soo monday spells start the of furious revision. here we go :/

call us out on our mistakes
call them all just fun and games
we act and we act all over again
but it's all the same

music:six feet under the stars-all time low

mood:perky

first up- happy 18th nietz! good god girl. it's been a whirl wind grand total of 5 years knowing you. granted, not all five were spent in constant company with each other but the distance makes the heart grow fonder. or something. Best Friends Forever. totally. haha. and guess what. expect me in canada sometime next year (: i hope it's not so cold when i get there!

haha remember our crepes? cool shit yo'

and we looked so young back in year8. guess we've changed a lot since huh.

ps: i sent you a really cool e-card. the real card via snail mail's gonna have to wait a while. i'll make sure i get it to you before my birthday. haha

anddd we've hit the september hols. supernatural marathon! in between study breaks of course. i contribute it to stress (whatever), but i'm rolling my eyes at everyone and everything way too often. i should probably stop especially since my eyeballs feel a little loose around their sockets.

but there's room for two

six feet under the stars

coolios.
ch-ch-ch-check it out.
my new layout signalling my absence till after prelims,
hopefully.

music:she doesn't get it-the format
mood:sleepy

-i have self-imposed a ban on the computer, but now is just an exception--a break i tell myself. it feels so unreal that prelims are only days away. fuckityfuck :/

-i hope xinEEE!'s living it up for the rest of us holed up because of the looming exams! lucky duck.

-PHANG KEE WEI is the bestest friend ever. there you go. maybe now you will turn up when you google yourself again. cough-narcissistic-cough.

-i miss dance and peoples :(

-sunday hotcakes breakfast with BFF! can't wait.

music:flourescent adolescent-the arctic monkeys
mood:grumpy

-gotta love this song. gotta love the brits innit'
-organic chemistry sucks ass
-2 weeks to prelims and im nowhere near getting ready
-doesn't quite help that i've lit essay to do! what are the uses of letters?!
-anddd here i am, lurking around on the internet scavenging for new songs. tsk, lynette, tsk!
-i'm feeling very flushed right now. but i know i won't fall sick. (i hope)

music:dear maria-all time low
mood:fatigued

yeah i've been gone for awhile. but here i am again with 1)a new phone, and 2)a weekend story to tell.


1)i ditched my loyal sony (well not so much as the stupid joystick was temperamental) for a prettiful samsung. its ULTRA slim and slides so i was pretty much sold. still trying to figure out how to work it though. haha funny story:was in the library when devanshi called and while trying to accept the call i ended up putting her on the loud speaker which ensued in a too-loud-HELLO-for-the-library.


2)the weekend really starts with friday and ends with saturday. so throughout school on friday i was kinda in a moral dilemna, moral because it makes it sound all the more interesting and me, morally conscious. it was between clubbing with friends visiting from america or immersing myself in organic chemistry. i decided, eventually, after much hemming and hawing to do the former. anyway, after school went to meet BFF! couldn't really do much inbetween afterschool and math tuition so we had lunch and walked/talked. it was good, catching up. can't wait for our study time next week!

so. rushed home then down after tuition. melissa got bounced twice and was on the verge of giving up when her third time was a charm thanks to xinyi and friends. sent melissa home before going down to mos with michelle. and woah. house/trance was such a virgin experience. it was a really stark departure from the usual r&b/hiphop. anyhow. made it home at around 4 and we sat and talked a bit before she going to meet her 'lover'. crashed into bed only to wake 2 hours later to meet manda for breakfast.

subway foiled our breakfast plans so we ended up in coffee bean and shijie joined soon after. we're such lazy bums we ditched our rollerblading plans for the bicycles. its really nice cycling along the beach/waterfront! cycled for 2 hours then had a ginormous lunch at the hong kong cafe which brought back many many scrumptious memories of HK. planned trips to take after As. haha can't wait! shijie and i then went to millenia walk, coffee club to STUDY. haha by that time i was pretty much dazed with only 2 paltry hours of sleep and some alcohol still in my system. left too early for dinner with family and some peoples (slightly distant relatives). dinner was yum but dragged on too fricking late. this time, i swear i was REELING with fatigue. not good. eventually made it into bed at 1030. sleep at last!


shitfuck. prelims ONLY a meagre 3 weeks away. when overseas acceptance rests on those grades, it gets a little worrying that i'm not already studying my brains out. a little.

music:must have done something right-relient k
mood:sleepy

short update:-
learning fest was okayyyy. i learnt how to balloon sculpt though, a pretty mean feat considering...yeah. i managed to twist the balloons into puppies and flowers without once popping the balloons! hiphop was alright, guess i can now truly call myself the 15th member of keisha/vk's dance. hah. and eng wah cinematic experience was blah boring except for hairy potty.

speaking of which, freaking everyone's reading the deathly hallows. okay hah. im no exception. but seriously. harry potter practically screams from every single corner, books, posters, magazines. euugh. even music. its hilarious really: harry and the potters, the moaning myrtles, MC Dawlish, we-who-must-not-be-named...and the list of wizard rock bands simply goes on. soo this has been pretty much my major source of entertainment on the internet this whole week. good times fo' sho.

music:island-the starting line
mood:nostalgic

just a keep a hold on me don't let go
if you float away
if you float away
waiting too long for a ship to come
don't you float away
don't you float away


so. rapture'07:

it was a blast really.

XINYI! we managed to pull off our item! yay for us :)

and yet tears were still shed, not because we came to the end of the performance but because it seemed like the last time we would dance together. that realization really got my waterworks going as i thought about the countless afternoons and nights spent on the cc stage,in front of the GO,in the puny studio of ours. i thought of the long trips on the train/bus to performance venues, the hours spent backstage just fooling around.

it's kind of crazy just to think about all the (unlikely yet strong)
friendships formed in the course of one and a half years.

we might still go on dancing separately, elsewhere, but i'm really going to miss dancing with this special (some more than others! read:retarded) group of people :(

i ♥ the dancers!

on a sidenote, post-rapture=loads of work to be done. pooey.

i've got a new podster! like, finally.
haha and my brand new pablo is all white and nerdy.
but that'll soon change. i'm thinking: pretty in green?
anddddd i'm pretty much happy today.

music:shortly before the end-ok go
mood:exhausted

omg. im soo super exhausted, drained, dead. we had a full dress rehearsal today that didn't go down too well! :/ oh no. at least the second run saw an improvement! the quick changes were kinda nerve-wrecking, i swear i could feel adrenaline coursing through me as i tried to make it within the 5 mins. i really need to figure out how to feel! ugh. 6 more days! holy crapola.

after dance though, manda xinEEE! and me went down to chinatown to get sequins and ribbons. haha but we kinda ended up customizing prettiful necklaces in this really cool shop full of little (and some BUGE) gold and silver trinkets. it is definitely not for indecisive person! ahem manda.
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TRUE FRIEND!
love you muchos <3

okay. now the dreaded SGC awaits me. bleh. as hard as it is to believe, i find it extremely difficult to package and market myself. i am so not a whore. heh. stupidstupidstupid. oh and i've got some serious hardcore sewing to do for cindy's costume! i can't believe i got an A for home ec before. the teacher was definitely blind to the horrible stitching.

music:anything is possible-this providence
mood:dead beat

holy shit. im sooo tired i can barely think. so point form's handy:
-tuesday signalled the end of bt2. finally, it was getting annoying.

-wednesday called for dance, and then some at mambo night. but not before transformers with keish,manda,mok and hannah. 10mins into the show,the skeptic in me became a total fan. then we trooped down to zouk where we met half of singapore. so much for memorising all those numbers! 15345,678267. haha. mambo was hilarious.

-stayed over at manda's and had subway breakfast before dance. YUM. i eat subway! and then met cindy after for veekay's birthday. HAHAH. it was kinda awkward initially considering we were kinda overdressed. oh wells. cindy would've won 'best dressed' for sure.

-dance again, before college day on friday.then rushed home, showered,changed and went down to orchard in a record time of 45mins. woah. had dinner with melissa and then met up with gabriel for drinks. i was kinda lost when they started on unis in america. which makes me wish i again that i could leave singapore. its only in bed that i realise alcohol and coffee isn't good for an early morning.

-had dance AGAIN today. 8-5 which makes up to a total of 9 hours. or something. i hate math. and i was pretty much dead beat. and still am. brought my lovely rotund brother out for dinner despite the urge to become a rip van winkle and not wake for another 100years. had kimchi soup which was YUM. andddddd i got a really good book--'the time traveller's wife'. it says on the blurb

'...an old-fashioned love story' and

'an elegy to love and loss'.

kinda easy to see how easily i was sold.
i wanna just read love and happyness.

--edit--
so much for point form.

music:let go(frou frou cover)-boys like girls
mood:relaxed

-its overrrrrrr.
-we've got plans. for sure yo'
-teachers are funny, but their blogs are hilarious. hoho
-rapture up next! an assload of work ahead :/ (im really scared.)

music:cathedrals-jump,little children
mood:satisfied

just ate yummy home-cooked pasta. yumm. so im pretty happy right now.
so. block test. i probably shouldn't make such a big deal about it, it's just a test right? right. probably should have studied a bit more. maybe?
taking a breather right now, before bio and math on tue. yippy. i can't wait for it to be overrrr.

in the cathedrals of New York and Rome
there is a feeling that you should just go home
and spend a lifetime finding out just where that is

prettiful song. i like jump, little children.

three words: i am fucked.

i probably shouldn't have spent all that time on dr.house,the cute brothers from supernatural and overall too much teevee. tv really is evil.

anddddddd. pablo my podster died on me again. i really should doubly underline it for emphasis.

pooey.

music:sewn-the feeling
mood:perky

give me the song &i'll sing it like i mean it
give me the words &i'll say them like i mean it
NAH NAH NAH NAH NAH NAH NAH
(the nahs were possibly the catchiest part of the song.haha)

-daddyo came back from japan on thurs with plenty of japanese goodies! they looked really prettiful, each of the boxes all nicely packaged and wrapped up. they remind me of christmas, and i can't wait. obviously i opened all of them.

-CIP at toa payoh polyclinic/daycare yesterday. we made a rather yummy-looking fruit salad! i love cold canned peaches :) total LOVE. i kinda made a friend, i know she liked me 'cos she wanted so badly to share her food with me. heh. but some of us left early :/ and stupid baowu beat my high score with powerpuff. growl.

-wisdom literally fell from above and struck me hard in the head last night. haha. i was shifting books around and the 'little book of simple wisdom' decidedly fell hard onto my head. i would quote something from the book, but i really don't understand those little nuggets of 'simple wisdom'. they could have made it plainer.

-do you ever feel so stifled some days, and are fighting to get out and see the world? while other days you just want to stay in your bed and in your head.

music:hate (i really don't like you)-plain white t's
mood:lethargic

dance was abruptly over on saturday night after the rj Sentio charity concert. as usual:mixed feelings bout it. in any case it's high time i start studying. pooey. so i guess a self-imposed hiatus is in order and blah blah blah.

and hahaha i LOVE this song. it's just so applicable/relatable.
hate is a strong word but
i really, really, really don't like you
heh. cue huge sing-along.

see how easily distracted i am? not good..

anberlin/copeland

music:everlong-the foo fighters

mood:happy

a heads up, this is gonna be mostly a photo (read:brainless) entry.

-as guest performers at tjc's reverie3. dancers at their most unglamorous moments. savour these. in our defence: oddly enough, there was only reception in the toilet of all places. hence the amount of time spent in the toilet. heh. (L-cindy(STD), R-yours truly)

-anberlin/copeland! it was pretty good. had my reservations but it turned out to be a great show. totally worth my 60bucks, 3 and 1/2 hours worth of music for that price is a pretty good deal, no?

peewee's eyes rimmed with eyeliner artfully applied by ME. of course, up close it was pretty bad/messy.

copeland's set. we were treated(endured) to 4 supporting local bands prior to them though. copeland's lead singer was pretty cute. heh. they played 'pin your wings' aka the amanda song! haha. i liked that.

anberlin's set. it was pretty obvious that most came for THEM. crowd went crazy, pretty scary moshing occurred. they played several of my favourite songs (day late friend!), ie ones i can actually sing to. they are amazing live!

i couldn't get to sleep last night despite feeling fatigue all over. i've concluded that i'm pretty stressed up, probably. i need to study. and think of better transitions into blocking. erps :/

blah.

music:brighter than sunshine-aqualung
mood:sleepy

EEE. i love this song. it's impossibly sweet.

let the rain fall i don't care
i'm yours and suddenly you're mine
love was brighter than sunshine

oh, i changed the layout! i think the new one's pretti-ful (: call me fickle or whatever, but the previous layout had to go. the pink flowery details were getting old. pooey. short update--

tjc reverie3 and we were guest performers. i thought we were pretty blah, but apparently we were pretty neat. so yay for us i guess. i thought tj's video was really cool especially when set to 'listen' by beyonce. i didn't study much unfortunately, but i've a new nickname for jun and i! LB1 and 2. haha.

slept over at cin's after it ended. scrubbed hard at my face and scalp to remove all the glitter and gel. yuck. slept without a pillow, but with a full stomach. heh. woke up early for a mac's breakfast. yum.

didn't have tuition today! hoho. buttttt i really need to get a move on with the homework and studying :/ ehh. maybe tomorrow. VETTING TOMORROW! holy geez.

anywhoo, this is a bit belated, but : sometimes i'm amazed at how similar we mother and daughter are. not just in temperament but also the relationships we have. maybe i should have told her this on mother's day.

golden(:

music:day late-anberlin
mood:hungry



HAHA met up with my BFF on tuesday right after dance (gruelling as usual). realised only then how much i missed her! haha just look at that picture, totally hamming it up for the camera. with both of us talking at a mile a minute, catching up was pretty fast! sleepover soon kay (: and please get a boyfriend soon. heh hehs.

finally got the anberlin/copeland tickets after making TWO trips down. oh wells. can't wait! and i wanna eat my tang yuan peewee! i should probably start learning the words to some of the songs. don't wanna get moshed out by hardcore fans..this is a start:

we are who
we are who we were when
we could've been more
but at least you're still my
day late friend

plans

music:hear me out-frou frou
mood:happy

so how do i do normal?
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so listen up
this sun hasn't set
i refuse to believe that it's only me feeling

• school's over &the hols are here. this means work though! pooey :(
dance &the impending bt2. bleh.

• OCCIDENTAL orient viewing at republic poly. woah i totally fell in love with their ginormous (haha that word looks funny, but apparently is spelt correctly) dance studio. 3 full-length mirrors across the 3 walls! like cindy said, we could hold 3 dance item practices simultaneously there. &then there were --

jump

shots
we went to causeway point after that. i love pasar malams. there's always too much tantalising food and way too many things to see. and woah causeway point's damn happening siaz~ too many people around for my liking :/

• watched 3-iron today. korean dramas are way overrated and sappy, but korean arthouse flicks are a totally different matter. i didn't quite understand what the movie was actually about, but the guy was pretty cute and there was a semi-sweet ending, without the nauseating saccharine sweet aka predictable&boring conclusion nor the cliche cancer-stricken-death-that-turns-on-all-the-waterworks. OOH and i finally finished watching hollywood homicide. can i gush again about how adorable josh hart(hot)nett is?! he really is too cute.
• watched wildboyz and sweet sixteen on mtv as well. my two favourite shows :) there's something about stupid boys on tv acting real stupid &spoilt rich brats on tv being spoilt rotten that's so interesting. i believe that's called reality teevee.
• i've got a wonderful breakfast waiting for me tomorrow! baowu and i are gonna try subway's breakfast :) before the geepoo remedial and dance. yummy. i hope.
• &&! pirates tomorrow! whee.

(in point form 'cos i can't really think in full, propurrr sentences. also, notice how there's not a single mention of work/homework/study/revision? ahah)

earthquake on her mind

music:pretty handsome awkward-the used
mood:distracted

you look pretty low,
very handsome awkwarddddddddddddd

ive got a billion and one things running through my head at a mile per second. and we know lynette isn't really capable of such complexity. anywhoo. ticking things off:
-syfers! (: im glad the tears weren't for nothing!
-family dinners are never complete without bad karaoke family singers and public humiliation on the 'dancefloor' : OOH and my baby nephew is the cutest thing ever. i'm still amazed that that itsy one year old can say apple,blue,ball!
-rapture is too soon! we've in total approx 10hours worth of practice for each item before they go on stage. not good. im worried :(
-on the otherhand, me and xin finished the blocking complete with necessary sequentials today! looking good (:
-manda true friend! rest loads okay, take care. and things WILL work themselves out. they always do.
-BT2 in about 4 weeks! and not a single schedule or note in sight :/
-i absolutely cannot wait for the weekend, then holidays.

im so sleepy. but my brain is still buzzing.

scattered÷d

music:wherever you will go-the calling
mood:distracted

been really busy doing things other than what i should be doing. no good at all. i'm struck with the urgency (think BT2, rapture) but can't really shake off the complacency and overall laziness. bleh. i'm sooo disgusted with myself! and yet here i am, blogging and singing out of tune instead of writing my lit essay. pooey.

so dance yesterday. was actually looking forward to learning choreography for rapture, but zaki hit us with a surprise vetting session and xinyi wasn't there with me! :/ and there's gonna be another next week! haha how many more eights do we have left? A LOT.

hahaha. i was this close to getting a real pet this week ( i think it happened during this week, but i'm not so sure, my days just seem to meld together). and by real pet i mean bigger than a terrapin (a faux turtle in my opinion) or a fat balding hamster. but it's okay! i am getting me a puppy one day! although i'm not sure my irresponsibility counts for anything.

and then blahblahblah other things happened to other people. and i'm glad i just have school and dance to contend with. you know, i'm not too good with multi-tasking. maybe i was supposed to be a boy.

it's going down

music:mexico-jump,little children
mood:dazed

argh. my computer is frustratingly slow. anywhoo. i've got a major update. sorta.

phantom of the opera
but first, went to amanda's house ALL BY MYSELF! woahh. i took a bus there and everything. and had a minor unfortunate accident which left me embarrased more than a slight sprained ankle. then we went down to plaza sing and scurried round the whole building looking for something to help my minor wardrobe malfunction. good gawd. anywhoo then i left for new york new york to meet my BAOWU! her other homies were there too and thankfully it wasn't as awkward as i had expected. and i was so envious of their long tresses. anyway. phantom was real good! the effects and props and costumes were excellent! i swear i didn't jump at the gun shot. and i felt so sorry for the phantom at the end of the show, i almost teared unlike an unsympathetic someone! haha but the guy seated behind us had the most monstrous laugh ever. i have never heard anyone snort so loudly and clearly inbetween laughs before :/ we were supposed to go to dxo after that but that didn't happen in the end, but it's okay!

somebody's house party
i ended up joining manda,keisha,mau,xin,mock,jesse at the somebody's BUGE house. it's kinda funny how we had no idea who's house or party it was. oh wells. the dj didn't stay long! so we just played some drinking games and xinEEE! was pretty damn high. manda too! i just had a little buzz going on. but we eventually got our asses up and out. we took some pictures in the middle of the road! anywhoo. we didn't stay up to watch the sunrise in the end, but it was alright (: thanks true friend for the stay over!

and now, im busy fiddling with some mp3 mixer thingy. fingers crossed for this IT-illiterate!

short and bittersweet

music:dancing shoes-the arctic monkeys
mood:perky

-my podster dies on me again :/
+my podster lives again!
+the labour day holiday
+xinEEE! and me finishing 1 full combi (8eights peoples!)
-realising we have 32 more eights to go
-school after the labour day holiday
+pizza with cin today :D
-biology test on friday
+the BFF staying over friday
+phantom,dxo,sunrise on saturday :)

net result=a happy week.

nothing gold can stay?

music:say this sooner-the almost
mood:exhausted

syf
it's slightly scary and unnerving how 6 months of sweat, frustration, dead skin, tears, worry, blood...can all be compressed to a mere 7.03mins. i barely registered i had ran onstage from the wings before i was running out again. but we were all pretty happy it was all over. and zaki said he was pleased :)

results
we got gold. i won't lie, there was definitely disappointment and perhaps a bit of relief. well, it's forward and onward with rapture!

on the upside, we emerged a stronger and tighter team :)
SA DANCE;

2.4km
hahahha. i hit a personal best today! 12.37mins. go ahead and laugh, but it almost killed me to run in that sweltering heat. but i learnt that after the 3rd round, sheer human will takes over. pity i've got so little.

a line from 'the wind-up bird chronicle' by haruki murakami-
a person's destiny is something you look back at after it's past, not something you see in advance.
just a simple sentence that stuck i guess.

oddicity.

music:as you sleep-something corporate
mood:sleepy

singing my thoughts back to me
and watching heartache on tv

okayy this is a little long overdue, but here goes &thanks to shijie my dear funny friend:
This is what you are supposed to do. Cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game. Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. At the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog.

1.call me anal or whatever, but i can't stand my WHITE rice being TAINTED with sauce from other dishes. like, if its on a plate, the little mounds of vegetable/meat/rice have to be SEPARATE, with an invisible inch-thick wall between them.

2.i talk to myself on a pretty regular basis. hopefully the voice that answers is just my conscience. i don't have a problem, really.

3.i detest fish but to me, cod/salmon/tuna aren't fish.

4.is it weird how much my podster and itunes library are of a lifeline to me? maybe not if you're a music junkie too.

5.my unhealthy love for vinegar. apparently i can't say "auntie, add vinegar" enough. apparently the auntie can't add enough vingear into my noodles.

6.i'd choose discovery, travel and living over nickelodeon anytime. somehow david tutera the party planner (see: gay) and the mythbusters' crew are more entertaining than all the spongebob episodes combined.

people tagged:xinyi,jolene,chun lei,glory,pei hui,yuwen

&& my new word: ARRANT (adj/n/whatever)
1. _______'s face is ARRANTLY hideous.
2.You are ARRANTLY vile to me.

HAHAH. too cool.

pooey

music:my lack of skill-the early november
mood:exhausted

haven't updated in a while.
sat:dance and then malaysia, without a car! thank goodness my cousin was with me otherwise i could very easily have been a)lost
b)raped
no kidding. aunt's birthday went alright, usual karaoke and crazy dancing and good food. too much good food. too much karaoke and bad singers in the family.

wed:dance wasn't so good. the seniors came down and we possibly gave them a heartattack. (what a coincidence-as i type this, the SYF music plays on itunes) SYF is too soon :/ not good. my nails have been reduced to yucky stubs because of this and homework that conveniently piles up. bleh.

thurs:KEEWEI (baowu!) SAVED MY LIFE.

fri:project work results &then dance. it was kinda cool, maurine and i played around with the cc lights! no wonder stage lightning is a specialised course offered, no easy shit yo'.

and then i'm shit tired.

side note-i love/hate the SYF song. i hate how it screams "emote! emote!" and i just can't, but i love how it's so rich :/

NERDFACE! :/

music:dead end-the format
mood:schweepy (sleepy)

hold on there's a hole in my heart
everyone can see right through me
it goes all the way to the waves
where my love she tried to wash it away
I'm looking for a dead end song
we sit and find flaws in everyone
I want to keep you by my side
holding off tidal waves

hahhahaha. this song is soo damn catchy and tooth-achingly sweet. kinda. anyways. yay for the LOOOONG weekend as the teachers have gleefully pointed out as they dish out more homework. pooey. so much for good friday and easter bunnies.

dance on wednesday was pretty good, in the sense that it was encouraging. 20 more days! holy crapola, but we're gonna pull through it definitely. 3 weeks to StotheYtotheF and 3 weeks to start of rapture preparations. it's almost never-ending, and that's just the way i like it.

i've got my hands on the 'wind-up bird chronicle'! can't wait to start reading although i do have the afore mentioned shit loads of homework and peeNpee (60 fricking chapters!) to finish.

picture perfect:

music:gravity-john mayer
mood:tired

alrights photos finally up from sat night, courtesy of clarahhhhh! cin and i met the others at jalan kayu for prata right after dance. it was kinda amusing, having to bathe in school and cin even brought her hair dryer?! weirdo. anywhoo. prata is pretty good, minus the oil, the heat, the smoke, the flies. haha. im serious. lots of laughs definitely!and then we lounged by kenneth's mulit-million dollar mansion's pool. you know, he has like 100 units all to himself! anywhoo, photos from that night:

me,mel,clarahhh,kenneth&cin. kenneth looking wayyy gay as usual.

me &cin. i hearts her muchos.

our random posse pose.

i hope you get ungrounded real soon clarahhhh!

then we can go out more! shopping?!

me and mellums. twinnies forever. haha. playing telephone with the paper thosai.

i swear i mean it when i say it was BUGE. totally worth my $3.50!

i love photos. they totally capture the essence of that particular moment.

dance today was pretty bad. rehearsal at UCC :/ oh wells. we can do hella lot in 3 weeks! jiayous.

it feels so weird to not have tutorials to rush through, but it feels nice :)

i am an invisible monster!

music:catch my disease(that's the way)-ben lee
mood:amused

my head is a box filled with nothing

and that's the way i like it

my garden's a secret compartment

and that's the way i like it

now that the block tests are over, it kinda feels like i finally have decades worth of time on my hands. time i wanna spend on:


BOOKS-
-invisible monsters by chuck palahniuk
-a heartbreaking work of staggering genius by dave eggers
-the wind-up bird chronicle by haruki murakami
-ectasy:three tales of chemical romance by irvine welsh

MOVIES-
-the history boys
-TMNT (teenage mutant ninja turtles for the uninitiated)
-colour me kubrick
-300

&also,
-reruns of dr. house
-prison break season2
-30rock
-reruns of futurama
-heroes

now back to the wait for something substantial.

over and way the fuck out of the way!

music:futures-jimmy eat world
mood:perky

block tests are finally over. i think they were so misleading, 'test' connotes something of lesser importance..at least that's what i told myself. in addition to: i am not nervous, i am sorta-almost-not-quite prepared. but it appears my head knows me better. i couldn't sleep well for this whole week with dreams of numbers and possible questions. but it's okay, they merely bordered on irritating. but they're just TESTS. i can't even imagine the nights leading up to the big A-S.

anywhoo. i am super excited! lotsa shit planned for the post-bt1s.
and then there's dance.
and im in dire need of retail therapy.
and i need to stop chewing on my nails.

ooh. i've got a not-so secret admirer. and a whole bunch of other secrets.

sweetness (ohhhh)

music:bethamphetamine(pretty pretty)-butch walker
mood:skippy

sweet:

-BETHAMPHETAMINE. can't help but to croon along

"yeah you're real pretty pretty, you're pretty strung out for a girl"

-left toenails painted red, right toenails painted black
-"i love you like a million m&ms" courtesy of CHEWY &her obsession with chickflicks
-wearing my "paul frank is your friend even in outer space" hoody tomorrow. imma be the coolest kid in the exam hall
-attending math tuition the day before the paper &learning how much you DON'T know
-homemade roast chicken sand'ches with a dollop of mustard

2 down, 3 more to go!

oh yeah,
erps. i'm feeling guilty for spilling the porridge all over the bin purposely.
and ewww. i'm swearing off gum after having it tortuously disintegrating in my mouth.

chem scham.

music:reasons to fall-lauren hoffman
mood:restless

We're on a wire but it's better than drowning
And I don't care if I fall because I've never been higher
Everything's changing but I don't care for sameness
Because safety makes graves of the fearful I find

Could you be safe in my arms, and scared at the same time
Running towards and away 'til you're standing still

The mystery's calling, come if you dare
And find what is there when you tear down the walls
No you're gonna wait 'til the moment is certain
While I've been out searching for reasons to fall

Hard is the ground you're wrapping your arms around

know what, i like lauren hoffman ten to the seventeenth power times more than i do organic chem. fo' sho.
&i think i've a concentration span to match that of a goldfish. pooey.
oh wells. 6 more days to the end.
is it odd that i miss dance? my toes are itching, and i'm turning into a tub of lard already.

(i don't care if the colours don't match. growl.)

hind(er)sight.

music:baby, come on-plus 44
mood:drained

quit crying your eyes out,
the past is only the future with the lights on.

pursuit of happyness
it was surprisingly good..okay maybe not so much, given the rave reviews and what-not. my favourite part:
"And it was at that time that I thought about Thomas Jefferson writing that Declaration of Independence. Him saying that we have the right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. And I thought about how he knew to put the 'pursuit' in there, like no one can actually have happiness. We can only pursue it."

and right now, i probably need to be studying. 6 more days can only fly past that slowly.

edit--wow. in the space of 3 hours i've managed to change my blog skin TWICE :O shocker. "dressed in a fashion that's fitting with the inconsistencies of my moods" &&i'm hungry peoples.

BANdaid.

music:don't you know who i think i am?-fall out boy
mood:disgusted

they say quitters never win

we walk the plank on a sinking ship

i'm typing this as i rush my literature assignment and figure out where to fit in my revision for tomorrow's vector test. i'm seriously contemplating a hiatus, rather, a complete self-imposed ban on internet usage. i'm thinking it'll be a smart move, the only in a long time.

we need umbrellas on the inside

woops.fuck.

music:thnks fr th mmrs-fall out boy
mood:happy

LALALALALA
methinks the song is so damn catchy. too bad i'm missing FOB drama for my grandmother's birthday:/

holy. chemistry SPA today was sooo fucking shitbeans (ooh new word!) srsly. ugh. i swear i could feel my face drain of blood as the water drained out of the burette. which, was NOT meant to have happened. oh wells, at least i didn't BREAK something this time. yay for me.

& a yay for tomorrow too! i'll be missing lessons for moe's performance (haha talk about personification). seems like that's all i've been doing: missing. anywhooo. I LOVE DANCE. can't wait for tomorrow :)

what if i said that it didn't mean anything?