picture perfect:

music:gravity-john mayer
mood:tired

alrights photos finally up from sat night, courtesy of clarahhhhh! cin and i met the others at jalan kayu for prata right after dance. it was kinda amusing, having to bathe in school and cin even brought her hair dryer?! weirdo. anywhoo. prata is pretty good, minus the oil, the heat, the smoke, the flies. haha. im serious. lots of laughs definitely!and then we lounged by kenneth's mulit-million dollar mansion's pool. you know, he has like 100 units all to himself! anywhoo, photos from that night:

me,mel,clarahhh,kenneth&cin. kenneth looking wayyy gay as usual.

me &cin. i hearts her muchos.

our random posse pose.

i hope you get ungrounded real soon clarahhhh!

then we can go out more! shopping?!

me and mellums. twinnies forever. haha. playing telephone with the paper thosai.

i swear i mean it when i say it was BUGE. totally worth my $3.50!

i love photos. they totally capture the essence of that particular moment.

dance today was pretty bad. rehearsal at UCC :/ oh wells. we can do hella lot in 3 weeks! jiayous.

it feels so weird to not have tutorials to rush through, but it feels nice :)

i am an invisible monster!

music:catch my disease(that's the way)-ben lee
mood:amused

my head is a box filled with nothing

and that's the way i like it

my garden's a secret compartment

and that's the way i like it

now that the block tests are over, it kinda feels like i finally have decades worth of time on my hands. time i wanna spend on:


BOOKS-
-invisible monsters by chuck palahniuk
-a heartbreaking work of staggering genius by dave eggers
-the wind-up bird chronicle by haruki murakami
-ectasy:three tales of chemical romance by irvine welsh

MOVIES-
-the history boys
-TMNT (teenage mutant ninja turtles for the uninitiated)
-colour me kubrick
-300

&also,
-reruns of dr. house
-prison break season2
-30rock
-reruns of futurama
-heroes

now back to the wait for something substantial.

over and way the fuck out of the way!

music:futures-jimmy eat world
mood:perky

block tests are finally over. i think they were so misleading, 'test' connotes something of lesser importance..at least that's what i told myself. in addition to: i am not nervous, i am sorta-almost-not-quite prepared. but it appears my head knows me better. i couldn't sleep well for this whole week with dreams of numbers and possible questions. but it's okay, they merely bordered on irritating. but they're just TESTS. i can't even imagine the nights leading up to the big A-S.

anywhoo. i am super excited! lotsa shit planned for the post-bt1s.
and then there's dance.
and im in dire need of retail therapy.
and i need to stop chewing on my nails.

ooh. i've got a not-so secret admirer. and a whole bunch of other secrets.

sweetness (ohhhh)

music:bethamphetamine(pretty pretty)-butch walker
mood:skippy

sweet:

-BETHAMPHETAMINE. can't help but to croon along

"yeah you're real pretty pretty, you're pretty strung out for a girl"

-left toenails painted red, right toenails painted black
-"i love you like a million m&ms" courtesy of CHEWY &her obsession with chickflicks
-wearing my "paul frank is your friend even in outer space" hoody tomorrow. imma be the coolest kid in the exam hall
-attending math tuition the day before the paper &learning how much you DON'T know
-homemade roast chicken sand'ches with a dollop of mustard

2 down, 3 more to go!

oh yeah,
erps. i'm feeling guilty for spilling the porridge all over the bin purposely.
and ewww. i'm swearing off gum after having it tortuously disintegrating in my mouth.

chem scham.

music:reasons to fall-lauren hoffman
mood:restless

We're on a wire but it's better than drowning
And I don't care if I fall because I've never been higher
Everything's changing but I don't care for sameness
Because safety makes graves of the fearful I find

Could you be safe in my arms, and scared at the same time
Running towards and away 'til you're standing still

The mystery's calling, come if you dare
And find what is there when you tear down the walls
No you're gonna wait 'til the moment is certain
While I've been out searching for reasons to fall

Hard is the ground you're wrapping your arms around

know what, i like lauren hoffman ten to the seventeenth power times more than i do organic chem. fo' sho.
&i think i've a concentration span to match that of a goldfish. pooey.
oh wells. 6 more days to the end.
is it odd that i miss dance? my toes are itching, and i'm turning into a tub of lard already.

(i don't care if the colours don't match. growl.)

hind(er)sight.

music:baby, come on-plus 44
mood:drained

quit crying your eyes out,
the past is only the future with the lights on.

pursuit of happyness
it was surprisingly good..okay maybe not so much, given the rave reviews and what-not. my favourite part:
"And it was at that time that I thought about Thomas Jefferson writing that Declaration of Independence. Him saying that we have the right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. And I thought about how he knew to put the 'pursuit' in there, like no one can actually have happiness. We can only pursue it."

and right now, i probably need to be studying. 6 more days can only fly past that slowly.

edit--wow. in the space of 3 hours i've managed to change my blog skin TWICE :O shocker. "dressed in a fashion that's fitting with the inconsistencies of my moods" &&i'm hungry peoples.

BANdaid.

music:don't you know who i think i am?-fall out boy
mood:disgusted

they say quitters never win

we walk the plank on a sinking ship

i'm typing this as i rush my literature assignment and figure out where to fit in my revision for tomorrow's vector test. i'm seriously contemplating a hiatus, rather, a complete self-imposed ban on internet usage. i'm thinking it'll be a smart move, the only in a long time.

we need umbrellas on the inside

woops.fuck.

music:thnks fr th mmrs-fall out boy
mood:happy

LALALALALA
methinks the song is so damn catchy. too bad i'm missing FOB drama for my grandmother's birthday:/

holy. chemistry SPA today was sooo fucking shitbeans (ooh new word!) srsly. ugh. i swear i could feel my face drain of blood as the water drained out of the burette. which, was NOT meant to have happened. oh wells, at least i didn't BREAK something this time. yay for me.

& a yay for tomorrow too! i'll be missing lessons for moe's performance (haha talk about personification). seems like that's all i've been doing: missing. anywhooo. I LOVE DANCE. can't wait for tomorrow :)

what if i said that it didn't mean anything?

Mixtape - Butch Walker

this song is pretty decent but the video is better. watch and melt.

i'm going to hit a BLOCK.

music:penny on the train track-ben kweller
mood:sleepy

i realise i'm always sleepy, must be that i'm growing! :) and i would much rather sleep now than do my homework but it's okay, i've got a lovely BEEG mug of hot coffee+milo+milk. makes me all warm and sleepy.

i wait yeah,

i wait for something good,

for something great

if you can't get behind your own life

get behind the driving wheel

and go, just go

find a place that you don't know'

i'm just a penny on the train track

and i try, oh i try

i can't stop,

i don't know why

my dad gave me some career guidance/counselling in the short 15mins ride to school today. i was intially cynical and was pretty much prepared to roll my eyes at him, but it was pretty good. i know for sure now what i don't want to do. now to figure out what i do want :/

dance was pretty good today. we're almost done with SYF. well, we're getting there! whoopers. i probably don't say it enough, but i love the dancers! more than i love xiao long bao and zha jiang la mien. which is a lot :P

22 more days to block tests. OHEMGEE. 'twenty two' seems awfully short. i have a pretty clear idea of what i should be doing, but there are always too many distractions, too many excuses. pooey :(

HAHHA. i love the little old skool smileys. they're so cool. coolface!

what a lardful.

music:buried myself alive-the used
mood:laden with lard

holy. i've been without the computer (read:internet access) for a record total of 5 days. 5 days in which i'd disappeared in the perilous jungles of m'sia. heh. not exactly. anywhooo

CHINESE NEW YEAR
eh. it wasn't really fun this year. i spent the 4 days doing:
1.eating (must have put on the equivalent weight of 10 ASIAN elephants)
2.sleeping
3.watching prison break (i know i'm kinda slow, but hey. WENTWORTH MILLER is BEAUTIFUL)
4.angpow collecting
5.smiling/grimacing

i feel cheated. it wasn't really a holiday. i want a holiday. NOW.
haha. sounds like that annoying spoilt rich bitch in charlie and the chocolate factory. V-whatsherface.

ps:pictures up sometime this year. heh

valentINO.

music:baby, it's fact-hellogoodbye

mood:brave

Blood Donation

i feel like a hero today! i AM a hero, i saved THREE persons' lives! wow. aren't i just your regular life-saver?

this says that i get to annoy you &you can't retaliate!

Friendship Week

polaroids are soo cool, and you know it. "shake, shake, shake it. shake it like a polaroid pichaaa"

Valentine's

even the cafe auntie is ready for lurrveee. haha. too cute.

OHEMGEE. biology test tomorrow! and i'm missing one set of notes. just great.

a different way to drown

music:the quiet things that no one ever knows-brand new
mood:frazzeled/swamped

we kept it safe and slow
the quiet things that no one ever knows

1. An Inconvenient Truth- one word. depressing. i came out of the theatre feeling as if we could all die just about anytime. think about it. if new york, USA wasn't spared, what more SINGAPORE, that speck at the bottom of malaysia. srsly. WE ARE ALL GOING TO DROWN IN COLD SEA WATER.

2.it's kindaaaa scary how block tests are in 5 weeks. like woah. i didn't realise that we'd learnt enough to be tested. it's like. 5 weeks! 35 days! study! yes...but study what? hohums.

3.I DETEST ESSAYS OF ANY SORT. it doesn't feel nice when i can't organize my thoughts in 2 hours, let alone phrase them into anything remotely english. so an essay for me averages about...4 hours. that's right.

4.is it just me or have the homework started to pile up? let's count this
-lit essay
-geepoo essay
-chem practical report
-bio practical report
-math tutorial
-chem tutorial
-bio CHAPTER test

OHMYGEE.
&that's all the mental capacity i have for this post. blame it on the homework teachers people who decided that scholastic achievement mattered. selfish bastards.

poor annie.

music:annie waits-ben folds
mood:sleepy

and so
annie waits, annie waits, annie waits
for a call
from a friend
the same
it's the same
was it always the same?
annie waits for the last time
the clock never stops, never stops, never waits
she's growing old
it's getting late
and so he forgot, he forgot
maybe not
maybe he's been seriously hurt
would that be worse?
headlights crest the hill
shadows pass her by and out of sight
annie sees her dreams: friday bingo, pigeons in the park
annie waits for the last time
just the same as the last time
annie says you see this is why I'd rather be alone.

she waits for the last time
just the same as the last time
she waits but not for you

(know what. i like pie.)

pictureperfect

music:if we're not back in love by monday-merle haggard

mood:dreading geepoo

if we're not back in love by monday

we can't say we didn't try

just before we bury our love

let's make sure we've let die

sleep a few more nights together

say the things we used to say

if we're not back in love by monday

we can go our separate ways
know what. i have no idea what this song sounds like, but i like the lyrics. it's sad but at least they tried.

this is mostly what i go to school for:

meet bob. my ex-water bottle.

a rainbow in glory's pencil case. prettayyyy.

someone VANDALISED the table with a scribbled 'i m not a vandal'. try harder person.

&this is why i love this month:

chinese new year! (:

okay. geepee ay-kay-ay geePOO (hahah i like this way of spelling out words as they sound. my version of onomatopoeia) is screaming for attention. insufferable whiny lil bitch.

i don't swing much.

music:brothers on a hotel bed-death cab for cutie
mood:cranky

you may tire of me as our december sun is setting
because I'm not who I used to be
no longer easy on the eyes
but these wrinkles masterfully disguise
the youthful boy below
who turned your way and saw
something he was not looking for:
both a beginning and an end
but now he lives inside someone he does not recognize
when he catches his reflection on accident
on the back of a motor bike
with your arms outstretched trying to take flight
leaving everything behind
but even at our swiftest speed we couldn't break from the concrete
in the city where we still reside
and I have learned that even
landlocked lovers yearn for the sea like navy men
cause now we say goodnight from our own separate sides
like brothers on a hotel bed
like brothers on a hotel bed
like brothers on a hotel bed
like brothers on a hotel bed

ugh. i HATE being a girl sometimes. pooey.

realised today that despite everything, i'm pretty much an IDEALIST. i could spend the day dreaming of what could be, what should be, what may be. but there's no fault in a dreamer and the dream!

&that i'm really too quick to judge sometimes. but it's okay, my conscience always gives people 2nd,3rd,4th chances.

BUT you, i can't stand YOU. like, shoo fly. you put the 'pest' in 'pestilence'. or something or rather. HAHA. Bring It On: "you put the 'd' in 'deluded'." i LOVE that movie.
anywhoo.
I DON'T LIKE YOU.growl.

ps: peeeee requested a spot on this exclusive entry: how dare you disagree with the hottness of ADAM?! there's seriously no room for anything less than HOTT. that's right. hawt with a double tee. serious shit yo'

music:somewhere in between-lifehouse
mood:preoccupied

'cause i'm waiting for tonight
been waiting for tomoroow
i'm somewhere in between

fear factor:
1.bugs
2.fungi
3.becoming an old cat lady
4.dying alone
5.mediocrity

check out the video below! it's funnnnay.

The Amazing Racist

180mph headed towards the wall

music:the approaching curve-rise against
mood:dilligent

as we were
so perfect, so happy
they'll remember
only our smiles
'cause that's all they've seen
long since dried
when we are found
are the tears in which we had drowned
as we were
so perfect, so happy

I'VE GOT A HEARTACHE!
and it really hurts. pooey. methinks my lungs are being invaded and butchered by some nasty virus.

dead poets hate me. srsly. even living ones are determined to make literature as hard for me as possible. growl.

anywhoo. MANDAYY this is for you:
Hey Amanda
Where'd you find these crazy boys this time?
They say you're pretty but you don't think they're right
Hey Amanda
While you're staring at your telephone tonight
do you feel like turning it off, turning off all of the lights?
Pin your wings down
if it's over now
Pin your wings down
just take a chance somehow
Hey Amanda
who just stole your heart away this time?
And when you're crying on your bed does he help keep you alive?
I'll take the blame if you take me home now
Cause' there's no place left for trust in all this pain
And you know when it rains in this town I get washed away
Without a sound
(pin your wings-copeland)
isn't it scary how relatable music is? WEIRD. I LIKE.

(sometimes all we need is a little [false] encouragement.)

who needs endorphins when you've got:

music:jesus christ-brand new
mood:happyhappy

things that put a smile on my face:
1.pancakes
2.sunshine-orange checkered boxers
3.GREEN
4.thick,thick stacks of notes fresh from the photocopier
5.this song. i could have it on repeat for...5 hours. &that's pretty much it.

i've been thinking, thinking actually requires some thought on our part. &i don't think it's a good sign if i have to try so hard.

I HATE MICROSOFT EXCEL. but it's okay, because it hates me too.