won't you be my solid ground?

2010-04-24T23:29:00.001+08:00

up and gone!

2010-04-15T15:48:00.002+08:00

i feel like i need a little more room to breathe, and live.

side note: just rediscovered something corporate. the comfort of the old and familiar is very welcoming and reassuring, sort of like the smelly security blanket.

when you come back

2010-02-18T13:20:00.000+08:00

can we

live on front porches and swing life away

rainbow veins

2010-02-12T16:05:00.003+08:00

and i'll blend up the rainbow above you and shoot it through your veins
cause your heart has a lack of colour

wonder why i can't be like this and like that.

i think i'm just missing you a little more than i let on.

monday-sunday

2010-02-03T19:37:00.001+08:00

and then there are some days i feel like this.

2010-01-30T23:35:00.001+08:00

i guess it's stupid to say sorry when it's so late.

I Wrote This For You: The View From Our Kingdom

2010-01-28T21:48:00.000+08:00

I Wrote This For You: The View From Our Kingdom

equations

2010-01-23T01:20:00.002+08:00

from some time back, and then again, recently--

i can't explain it.

i can't explain it in linear graphs with calculated gradients and intercepts.

i can't explain it in flow charts and arrows.

i can't explain it in 'cause and effect' models and theorems.

i can't explain it--can't explain why i'm feeling the way i'm feeling now and why you've got me grey like the clouds overcast ahead.

why is the weather report sometimes inaccurate?

we pray for sunny weather and clear skies but are only met with gloomy showers when we step out. wet, wet, wet.

'we need umbrellas on the inside'

BIO1101

2010-01-19T17:02:00.001+08:00

Lock & Key Hypothesis
Basically this is a model biologists used to explain how enzymes work to catalyze reactions and such. Picture a lock and it's key. It works on the basis of shape complementarity, it assumes that for every lock there is a specific key with a unique shape conformation that allows it to be inserted into the lock, turn it and hence locks/unlocks. Sexual connotations aside, we can draw parallels to love. Everyone talks about finding your soul mate, Hollywood churns out romantic comedies about searching for that one true love, that sole person you are made for. I guess it just makes it seem more reassuring to know that out there, is someone designed to be your perfect match, and yours only. Butttt it doesn't seem that all realistic.

Induced-fit Hypothesis
After they came up with the lock & key hypothesis, some other biologists proposed an alternative theory. They called it the induced-fit. So we get rid of the lock and key 100% match compatibility picture. Insteadddd what we have is sorta a molten down lock and key, meaning they still have a certain shape complementarity and they do fit with each other. Just that they don't give you the tight fit, that perfect click. The smart biologists theorized that after fitting together, the 2 molecules would then undergo slight changes to their respective shapes so as to fit more perfectly giving rise to the term : induced-fit. I think this sounds more realistic, perhaps even more achievable. Conflicts will inevitably arise, I don't think there can be 2 people with an exact 100% match in personality and character traits AND in love with each other. Maybe even then, circumstances around the 2 can shape problems. So we learn to compromise, to give and to take. It may not be equal but that's the beauty of the model. By altering ourselves in different aspects we accommodate, align, mould and shape to fit each other. Guess it can be seen as a tangible target to work towards.

But these are just hypotheses, theories.
Just trying to explain how 2 molecules or persons can collide
and spark.

2009-12-23T22:50:00.000+08:00

frustrated with my camera!
it keeps schizo-ing out on me ):
blahblahblahblah
can't wait to be back in 2 days!

2009-11-19T19:09:00.005+08:00

pretty pictures married with choice words.

2009-11-16T13:34:00.002+08:00

i feel like i'm hard pressed for time and yet i can't make myself stay awake, much less sit down and concentrate on my revision. DIEEEE :/

birthday is soooon. heh. but somehow, we just don't look forward to birthdays as much anymore. guess it comes with the increase in the number of candles on the cake. but i want my disney princess cake, i want the animal balloons, i want the pastel streamers. i want to feel that child's birthday specialness back :( I WANT A SECOND CHILDHOOD! hahaha

pandora's box

2009-10-21T03:36:00.001+08:00

it was probably better closed.

i need to stop thinking and maybeeee start studying.

2009-10-15T21:56:00.000+08:00

days like this i feel less than mediocre.

i think i should try harder.

everytime i--

2009-10-10T00:54:00.005+08:00

there's a gentle tug on my heart, a part which isn't mine anymore.

don't build your world around volcanoes, they melt you down

2009-09-30T16:56:00.002+08:00

Don't hold yourself like that

You'll hurt your knees

I kissed your mouth and back

But that's all I need

Don't build your world around

Volcanoes melt you down

What I am to you is not real

What I am to you you do not need

What I am to you is not what you mean to me

You give me miles and miles of mountains

And I'll ask for the sea

Don't throw yourself like that

In front of me

I kissed your mouth your back

Is that all you need?

Don't drag my love around volcanoes melt me down

What I am to you is not real

What I am to you you do not need

What I am to you is not what you mean to me

You give me miles and miles of mountains

And I'll ask for

What I give to you

Is just what i'm going through

This is nothing new

No no just another phase of finding what I really need

Is what makes me bleed

And like a new disease

Lord, she's still too young to treat

Volcanoes melt me down

She's still too young

Volcanoes melt you down

But she's still too young

I kissed your mouth

You do not need me

2009-08-27T01:28:00.002+08:00

grumpy now.

pissed at a lot of things.

pissed at a few people.

but mostly at myself!

growllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll.

i hate MAKING people COME watch ME.

i hate 8am lessons.

i hate LAB.

whinewhinewhine

bitchbitchbitch

tutorial's still undone.

phangkeewei is entertaining though!

rantvent

2009-07-20T00:34:00.001+08:00

i dont understand you!

2009-06-27T04:30:00.001+08:00

what's it called?
hoping against hope

hopefully now i can sleep.

2009-06-24T09:05:00.003+08:00

stole this from somewhere, but thought they were really pretty words:-

“At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it's not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.”

and we were dreaming

2009-06-19T15:06:00.003+08:00

music: existentialism on prom night-straylight run

mood: afternoon sleepy

one of my all-time favourite songs.

haha i can't even pick a paragraph of lyric to feature.

there are a billion things i coulddddd be doing now, but i'd rather watch friends. i'm moving through season 2! i majorly heart joey and phoebe (:

i'm eggcited for prague though. i think it's really ironic how i have to come up with a packing list for everyone, when i usually pack 4 hours before my flight's scheduled to take off. oh wellsssss.

blahblahblahblahblah

my nephew ian chew is simply the most adorable thing! i want one too, with deep dimples and that impish smile. haha as veeks said, just tell it to the baby machine.

OKAY BYE. nap time!

i guess what i can't get out is: i'm sorry too.

maybe, baby

2009-06-01T02:20:00.003+08:00

i think i might have just realised i don't have more than 24hrs a day.

i think i might have just realised i can't split myself into 2, or into anymore parts.

might.

i think i should learn to be okay with mediocre and ordinary.

i wonder what's grace

maybe it's being comfortable in your own skin

maybe it's being less, feeling less awkward

maybe it's just a name.

much ado about nothing/i'm doing nothing.

2009-05-31T14:54:00.004+08:00

it's hot and stuffy, i'm bored waiting for people who may or may not appear, trying hard to make my green tea frapp last longer...so here's this:

i think it's the accumulation of fatigue and sorts that's made me more irritable than usual. this grouchiness has been in town for some time already actually. haha i want the blase old me back, hazed and unfazed. haha anywhoo.

received a really nice surprise in the mail yesterday. it was a postcard from nietz! hope you're having fun by the way. i promise promise and thrice promise we'll have a holiday together soon, maybe next summer kay. i'll say no to any holiday committments and be free to fly. i'll start by practising my 'No's now (:

as i was saying the other day to the parentals. i don't think i'll follow the fad and hold a themed 21st birthday party. or even have a party at all for that matter. haha i mean think about it, if you're the host, you're obliged to play the gracious hostess on YOUR beeeg birthday. You have to flit from group to group make sure everyone's fed, hydrated, entertained, included. ugh too tiring. we're already doing that on a day to day basis. SO MY 21st BIRTHDAY should be celebrated by friends FOR me. divalicious (: a surprise birthday party would be nice, time to start planning shit peoples! and btw, i still want a puppy. heh 5 months to go! time's a ticking.

andddddddddd i can't think of what else to say.

w(hee)ii

2009-05-24T22:10:00.002+08:00

hahahahhaha i love my wii fit fitness instructor. she's simply the most encouraging virtual person i've ever known. literally. i'm on my way to being a yoga master! woo. albeit only in the virtual world...but never you mind. 'try to keep your balance within the yellow circle. you're doing a good job! you've got great posture.' WOOHOO teacher's pet, anyone?

omg fml.

enroute 30 musing

2009-05-23T12:11:00.003+08:00

How can we place so much trust in the underground subway system, to send us to destinations and places, safely. How, despite newsflashes and headlines of plane crashes and wreckages we board, buckle our seatbelts and look forward to the inflight entertainment. How do i and yet not have faith in there being a some one who alledgedly promises so much more?

Is it about taking the gamble, opening my heart and mind, just taking the plunge, and 'what have i to lose'?

moving...moved.

2009-05-17T14:13:00.001+08:00

it's amazing how much clutter you can amass in the course of ONE year.

and now the contents of one year are packed neatly (somewhat) in ikea boxes.

transportable.

2009-05-15T02:32:00.002+08:00

one.

i hate laundry. i hate DOING laundry. explain this to me: if there are washing machines and dryers, why hasn't anyone invented a machine that folds your clothes for you? surely all the physicists and engineers and whatever else can divert their attention towards this clear necessity.

two.

i think i need to have the samsara song on repeat. probably need to eat, drink, dream it too. HOW TO BE LIKE A BALINESE DANCER?

i'm freaking sleepy.

so byebye!

2009-05-09T02:05:00.003+08:00

lynette wonders when she started turning into a PMS-ing, overanalytical, insecure, needy, overly emotional, possessive, demanding, psychotic BITCH.

there has to be a turning point somewhere right?

right?!

on the UPSIDE-i've started reading my book (:

hor-lee-daezzz (:

2009-05-07T22:21:00.007+08:00

by virtue of the fact that this post is dated a day after my last paper, it's granted a HAPPY FACE :) at the very start of the entry. YAY summer hols are hereeeeeeeee!! it feels all too surreal that a whole year has passed, one whole year of boring lectures i drag my feet to, sleepy tutorials, an entire year of riding bus D and getting off at wrong bus stops, and... of new friendships made. i've semi-officially made it through to year 2, no matter my CAP. whee. i don't necessarily feel any older or wiser, just more tired. BUT TIRED CAN WAIT WHEN IT'S THE HORLEEDAEZ!

and because it's the holidays and i'm pretty much bored at home with nothing to do! i'm here to inject life into this sad pathetic ex-blog. go me! sooooooooooo i started out the holidays with the beach. me and mel are finally putting our islander card membership to good use, we're planning to make up for lost time before the card expires this july. anyhow, the tanning session resulted in me with a horrible tan line. but i have pictures!

blahblahblahi'mtoofreakinglazytoelaborateso--

1)need to sign up for driving lessons! screw. not something i'm looking forward to :/ life would be so much easier if i could just have my very own chauffeur who answers to my bell. sweeettttt :)

2)hall stuff YAY. not a tinge of sarcasm there, really!

3)i need to read. i don't think i've picked up a non-module-related book since...before school started. almost a year ago. i've probably forgotten how to read paragraphs, after a year of powerpoint slides and bullet points.

4)get my life back. this is a SOS, for real. i think i've started progress today already, with mel--suntanning and retail therapy.

and i don't know what else. distracted, can't think, can't be bothered to think. half-assed entry but oh wells. SYB! (:

random (numbers)

2009-04-24T11:50:00.003+08:00

induced-fit model

we can't all have our ideals and eat it, with ice cream on the side.

we compromise, and we settle, we swallow misgivings and change to better fit.

i'm finding it hard to trust in what seems like a trust fall.

but i'm already half way down.

2009-04-08T09:51:00.000+08:00

i need a holiday from real.

sometimes 'cheer up' just doesn't cut it

2009-02-16T02:51:00.002+08:00

February. Get ink, shed tears.
Write of it, sob your heart out, sing,
While torrential slush that roars
Burns in the blackness of the spring.

-Boris Pasternak

not the most encouraging of poems but it does feed my self-indulgence.
heehee.
OMG i just realized. how apt--its february this month too!

2009-02-10T02:12:00.006+08:00

its funny how self-doubt slowly creeps in then permeating, and filling your whole person.
you might laugh it off at first, joining in with the others
then maybe your posture changes, from the self-consciousnes you adopt a hunch
by then you start to question if you were ever good enough
and maybe you just learn to give up

sometimes i can't make it alone

2009-02-05T13:18:00.003+08:00

i've always been good at faking normalcy, what's different this time?

OMT. i was looking through this really old blog of mine and was utterly appalled and embarrassed by the way the 13 year old me used to type. stuff like 'mi', 'kewl', 'realli', 'haf' and the list of crimes goes on. ugh. shudders.

I AM DISGUSTED BY MYSELF.

and heh, i'm supposed to be doing something productive aka something that contributes to the positive increment in my CAP.

anddd i probably don't say this enough, but i LOVE my bffs ((:

dear xray machine pretend you don't know me so well

2009-02-03T22:46:00.002+08:00

music: plane-jason mraz
mood: boredoutofmyfreakingmind

there's a billion other things i should be doing right now, and all related to school but--

from some time ago:
sometimes i wish i could just lose myself in a crowd,
become just another nameless, blurred face.
sometimes i wish i could just forget myself.

andddddd i realise, i don't know anything anymore! bleh second guessing should be a cardinal sin and maybe then i'd do it less.

2009-01-28T18:48:00.003+08:00

Grief can destroy you -- or focus you. You can decide a relationship was all for nothing if it had to end in death, and you alone. Or you can realize that every moment of it had more meaning than you dared to recognize at that time, so much meaning it scared you, so you just lived, just took for granted the love and laughter of each day, and didn't allow yourself to consider the sacredness of it. But when it's over and you're alone, you begin to see that it wasn't just a movie or a dinner together, not just watching sunsets together, not just scrubbing a floor or washing dishes together or worrying over a high electricity bill. It was everything, it was the why of life, every event and precious moment of it. The answer to the mystery of existence is the love you shared sometimes so imperfectly, and when the loss wakes you to the deeper beauty of it, the deeper sanctity of it, you can't get off your knees for a long time, you're driven to your knees not by the weight of loss but by gratitude for what preceded the loss. And the ache is always there, but one day not the emptiness, because to nurture the emptiness, to take solace in it, is to disrespect the gift of life.
-odd hours, dean koontz

wow. i want to love like that.

hippo!crite

2009-01-23T20:53:00.004+08:00

music: melt my heart to stone-adele
mood: happy

hahahahhahahahah its been EONS since i last blogged. so i guess i kinda need to eat my words 'blogging is so passe'

im in love with this song! i think it'll be nice to curl up in bed with a good book and this song on repeat.

Right under my feet there's air
Made of bricks, pulls me down
Turns me weak
For you I find myself
Repeating like a broken tune

school's started and hall never stopped. but it's not so bad, yet. heh and i mighttttttt have already broken one of my new year's resolutions: to attend all lectures. ahhh screw.

BUT highlight of my week: met up with BFF ah ting on wednesday. we're now known as The 10-12 Brunch Clique in a bid to inject more 'fun' into our lives, or lack thereof. it was pretty funny how two borderline 20 yearolds just sat jaded in the middle of the arts canteen, completely envious of a 17 yearold boy/kid. we both agreed we need more spontaneity in our lives..and maybe a driving licence would help.

OMG I BOUGHT A PINK TSHIRT. WILLINGLY. shudders. okay, in my defense there weren't any other colour combi options left andddddddd it is a cute shirt. it has FREAK emblazoned across. heehee. cuteeeeeeee (:

sometimes. i feel not-quite-lost. does that even make sense? haha. like, i'm merely cruising through life without actually taking hold of the wheel. i've picked the easiest course, the one that has my future pretty much mapped out, all nice and neat for me. my modules are largely allocated to me, it's a direct honours programme, there are only so many career options..everything is so safe. safe is good, but i feel like i've placed my life under anti-depressants. haha maybe i should just go skydiving some day soon.

anyways. CHINESE NEW YEAR IS HERE. hahaha
chinese new year:
+pineapple tarts
+money
+no school
-annoying extended relatives that apparently i'm related to
so all in all, chinese new year=good times.

i still can't believe i'm blogging.

2008-11-29T10:06:00.003+08:00

wheee semi-celebratory post.
semi because exams are semi over..monday,7pm!
fuck yeah (:
OKAY BYE.

and i'm ready to come down
and see us both somehow
on the beautiful side of somewhere, baby

2008-11-23T19:50:00.002+08:00

i've fallen in love
with this adorably cute puppy in this pet shop
i think toy poodles are the SHIT!
aww puppies just make you melt into a puddle of warmth and puppy-ness
again, i'm here because i'm trying to avoid 'our atmosphere: a chemical perspective'
and finals have officially started and i'm wondering where the semester went?
i feel like time was stolen from right under my nose
and i want it back terribly so
so my first paper was yesterday, a saturday MORNING if i may add
and i finished the paper in half the time allocated
and spent the next half just praying for divine intervention
or sudden enlightenment
but nope, nothing
and i've all these other half-thoughts swimming about in my head
half-thoughts because i don't really want to think about them
let alone put them down in words
but it's starting to feel very cluttered up there in my head
okay bye.

brainspeak

2008-11-17T08:53:00.003+08:00

OMFG I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING.

OKAY SO I DO KNOW WHAT I'M DOING.

BUT I'M NOT DOING WHAT I'M SUPPOSED TO BE DOING, ACCORDINGLY TO MY PAINSTAKINGLY PLANNED AND DETAILED STUDY TIMETABLE.

SCREWWWW.

SOMEBODY PLEASE SHOOT ME RIGHT NOW.

HMM. SUBWAY COOKIES SOUND NICE.

pre-tautomerism

2008-11-10T09:35:00.005+08:00

music: when it rains-paramore
mood: lazy

and when it rains,
on this side of town it touches everything

it's currently pouring outside my window.

the perfect weather to sleep in, but i have this thing called finals which are pretty much soon.
whatakilljoy.

talked to baowu a few days back ( i think? im losing track of my days) and i really really supremely extremely miss her ): i'd almost forgotten how entertaining she is. heh

i'm here typing this pointless entry simply because i don't really want to start on tautomerism. haha i'm not even sure that's how you spell it, but. it's slightly scary how most of my notes are empty and the slides are definitely not self-explanatory. i have post-its with 'WHAT?!' all over.

oh the weekend was much needed. i spent time with family, ate shitloads of food, went rollerblading (i thinkkkkk i bladed 10km. apparently i should go pro) basically got ready for hall and school again.

is it just me or do our birthday wishlists get shorter as we get older? it's not that we want less, but that we want more intangible things. things not on departmental shelves or with a price tag.

say goodnight and go.

2008-11-07T14:03:00.002+08:00

i miss home.
a lot.
and all of a sudden.
anddd i don't know why ):

okay maybe i do.
running was always the easiest. especially if it's in the opposite direction.

OMFG. the exams are soon.
on the upside, my birthday is soon-er (((:
i want a puppy. heh

2008-11-02T18:55:00.002+08:00

music: my blue heaven-taking back sunday
mood: tired

okay so im bored and rather not do the things i'm supposed to do so here goes:-

night cycling! it was tons of fun except maybe the rain was a dampener somewhat. but yeah. i can't believe i seriously cycled from the west to the east of singapore. i hope everyone doesn't fall sick though. anddddd i had the best cycling partner! kh: TRUST AND CONFIDENCE! hahaha. lots of pictures expected (((:

we got back to hall at like 9ish and crashed before going for ensemble. omg i have no idea how me and veeks survived tech class. but it felt exceptionally satisfying. PLUS my doubles were surprisingly on that day. i should be exhausted and sleep deprived more often. ME AND VEEKS ARE GONNA WORK OUR ASSES OFF DURING DANCE CAMP and hopefully be a step closer to our idols!

i realised how much i missed home when i got home. it felt like i could BREATHE again. hall is fun and all, but sometimes it just gets suffocating. i think i'm the sort that needs lots of free space. maybe i should just park myself in a car parking lot or something. heh.

the weekend feels exceptionally short. i'm not looking forward to the starting week--i've got a pract test, a term paper due and rehearsals/show time for a performance...all of which i'm utterly unprepared for. BUT i console myself with the fact that i usually perform under stress so...maybe it's a good idea everything is snowballing and heading directly into my path.

omfg. things are kinda screwed up and i have a feeling it's mostly my fault.

all the cards begin to stack up
twisting heartache into fine
little pieces that avoid an awful crime
but it's you i can't deny

everything but anatomy

2008-10-30T01:50:00.001+08:00

no wonder they say self-doubt is crippling.

AND. i'm still very much confused. screwwwww.

slow dancing in a burning room

2008-10-26T15:28:00.001+08:00

one time too many.

please stay away because sometimes, my head is drowned out by my heart or whatever you call it.

new

2008-09-30T18:41:00.003+08:00

wow. i haven't blogged in pretty much a billion years.
i've nothing much to say now except: studying sucks the life out of my life.
hah, how eloquent.
):
sometimes i just feel less than average.

work sucks, i know

2008-06-25T14:03:00.002+08:00

music: phones ringing
mood: disgruntled

yeahh haven't really felt like blogging much the past weeks. not even now, but i need something to alleviate the immense boredom. work. it figures.

soo.
-sheares hall camp was incredibly fun
-i re-re-joined facebook. hahahhahah

yeah i think that's pretty much everything.

OH. today, because i only start work at 12.30 (well i thought i was 12.30 but apparently it's supposed to be 12) i woke up at 8.30 and breakfasted with the mother. Decided it was still too early to get ready for work so i went back to bed, still in my cute reindeer pajamas! yeah then eventually dragged my lazy ass out of bed at 10.30. haha so cool.

and now i'm here. bleh. butbutbut

-5th driving lesson tomorrow HAHAHAHAHA
-'get smart' with peihui tomorrow
-dance stuffs tomorrow

-T3 exploration with the BAOWU on friday
-rag practice on friday

okay bye!

ciao!

2008-06-02T23:03:00.003+08:00

music:honey-the hush sound
mood:awake

soo i'm back. yay!

ITALY was simply amazing. it really is all it's made out to be and more. i would have stayed there forever, but i missed my bed too much :/

we took tons of pictures with very little discretion, the family just snapping away at every building, monument, statue, wall, etc. when i do find the usb cable for the camera, i'll put some awesome pictures up.

it's just so unbelievable how 95% of the buildings in Italy are from times long before. you can almost hear the loud whisper of their many pasts. really really really incredible. of course there was all the pizzerias and trattorias that crowded the cobbled streets-my brother's slice of heaven. haha. he seriously kept chanting 'risotto,risotto' whenever we sat down at a table. oh and i saw venice's ambulance--a boat of course. haha too cute.

the entire trip felt so surreal, as if i hadn't just travelled nearly half way round the world to a completely different country, continent. i'd expected to feel displaced, but..nothing. maybe that's the beauty of it.

OH and we stole some nutella from the breakfast table which exploded in my bag during the flight back and covered my ipod earphones so they are pretty much destroyed now but it's not too bad because i bought new earphones which are kinda awesome because they have changeable caps loads of fun to play around with!

anyways. i'm really perky now seeing as how it's only 5pm back there. is this still called 'jetlag'?
arrivedeci italy :(

italiano

2008-05-22T16:00:00.002+08:00

music:holiday from real-jack's mannequin
mood:excited

but if you left it up to me
everyday would be a holiday from real

i've just finished packing, exactly 4hrs before my flight takes off. wow.
anyway, italy's expecting me sooo
ciao!
try not to miss me too much (:

yum

2008-05-20T23:43:00.005+08:00

music:see the sun-the kooks
mood:chirpy

17/5:
pictures from saturday--

our ingenious brownie cupcakes! okay maybe not so much.

our grossly demented cookies. hahah they are such evil little amoeba like shits, trying to engulf the surrounding others. but they WERE yummilicious.

clara,mel and me!

20/5:
hahha omg i was so freaking bored at work, you have no idea. you'd think i would be immune to it, after being constantly subjected to such immense boredom...but no. anyway the outcome of such--

because m&m's makes everyone happy! if you don't crack a smile when you see this little sucker, you're an emotionless, callously cold FISH. i don't like fish.

a disgruntled m&m smiley. unhappy because i'm about to eat it. yum.

so i'm practically devouring books whole. i'm nearly done with 'stranger than fiction' by chuck palahniuk. i really, really like him.

'Okay, okay, so maybe we're headed down a road toward mindless,
self-obsessed lives where every event is reduced to words and camera angles.
Every moment imagined through the lens of a cinematographer. Every funny or sad
remark scribbled down for sale at the first opportunity.
A world Socrates couldn't imagine, where people would examine their lives,
but only in terms of movie and paperback potential.
Where a story no longer follows as a result of an experience.
Now the experience happens in order to generate a story.'

anddd i'm guilty as charged.

i want ashton

2008-05-18T11:40:00.003+08:00

music:one headlight-the wallflowers
mood:relaxed

16/5:
received some good news which kept me somewhat perky throughout work :) met up with mel to somewhat finalise our travel plans. haha but found ourselves back to where we'd started. i don't think either of us are too great at making decisions. chinatown dessert was good though.

17/5:
baked cookies and brownies with mel after dance. they were good yeah! we should so totally start our own lil cafe/bakery thing. watched 'what happens in vegas' with the choir peoples-clara,mel,elroy,zhicong. i was pleasantly surprised, it was pretty entertaining for a chick flick. largely due to ASHTON KUTCHER who was unfailingly ADORABLE throughout. awww. pictures from mel soon.

I'm bored soooo:-

Open iTunes. Go to your library. Answer, no matter how embarrassing it is.
Sort by Song -
First Song: A-Cartel
Last Song: 99-Fightstar

Sort by Time -
Shortest Song: Ooooh...Aaah...-Butch Walker
Longest Song: Octavarium-Dream Theater

Sort by Artist -
First Artist: The Academy Is
Last Artist: 36 Crazyfists

Sort by Album -
First Album: Across the Universe OST-Various Artists
Last Album: 9-Damien Rice

Search the Keyword -
Song title only - and see how many songs appear:
"Sex": 6
"Death": 36
"Love": 113
"You": 405
"Me": 717
"Drug": 1
"Hate": 28

Shuffle your library and list the first five songs. No padding your
playlist you hipster, you. Be honest!! or I'll kill you.

1.We've Got a Big Mess on Our Hands-The Academy Is
2.Trains-Porcupine Tree
3.Destiny-The Rocket Summer
4.Newport Living-Cute Is What We Aim For
5.The Crane Wife 1 and 2-The Decemberists

Total music: 2381 songs

-lately i've been thinking such treacherous thoughts
-maybe surprises can be welcomed
-everything works itself out somehow, maybe we just need to lower our expectations a little

ah sais tae you

2008-05-13T23:24:00.005+08:00

music:oceans-the format
mood:satisfied

10/5:,
we had vetting for rapture. i hope this year is a good year. go alumni! haha. and i so cannot hiphop. my defence: i'm chinese. i don't think H-I-P-H-O-P is written into our chinese DNA. pity. anywhoo. met yixiang and peihui for harold and kumar at freaking tampines. it was only after an hour plus bus ride home at midnight that i realised exactly how far tampines is from home. and even after the bus ride, i ended up at toa payoh, not HOME. but anyway. haha i love the racist bits in the movie--about the jews and afghan terrorists. and i visited shijie at work! missed her muchos (: ly f sq!

11/5:
Mother's day! i baked apple pie for my mommy. yeah believe it. lynette's finally domesticated. oh but i screwed up the lattice-weaving-pie-crust-shit. it was simply to complicated for me. and omfg i peeled,cored and sliced EIGHT apples. all eight of them and ended up with a few nicks. but i think my mommy liked it.

12/5:
PAYDAY. and BFF sorta surprised me by being in the area and available for lunch. haha telepathy much? subway and chocolate chip+double chocolate chip cookies. too cool. and haha she's so cute and random. OH. and OMG. at work there's was this mofo rude caller. NO ONE has ever so condescendingly called me lousy before. i wanted to just bitch slap that smirk (i imagine) off that smug pug-like face (again, i think this is what he looks like, it's only befitting). yeah. i guess it can be said that i tend to hold grudges. at least for as long as i can remember them.

13/5:
i've been reading 'trainspotting' by irvine welsh and it's taken me a week plus to get past the halfway mark. the scottish collequial is just so hard to decipher, but i'm slowly plowing through. it helps sometimes to read it out loud, but most times i end up in giggles at how ridiculous i sound, how decidedly un-scottish. lessons learnt: 1)fitba is football and 2)addiction is dangerous

for a chance to dance with stars

take the wheel and

2008-05-08T22:39:00.004+08:00

music:drive-incubus
mood:perky

<--HAHA I FOUND THE PERFECT SONG FOR THIS.

6/5:
Happy birthday kris! , you scary pro dancer you. AND SO ANTI-MALAYSIAN. tsk. i hope someone comes after you!

Happy birthday peihui! keep the whole emo child thing going, and don't stop being lame and entertaining!

7/5:
manda and me did some stuff for the ball thingy. i swear it FELT like we were hitting the accents. haha guess it's just proof of how utterly musically retarded i am.

then i went for my first ever driving lesson. HAHA i KNOW i sounded like a complete ditz, so much so the instructor was struggling to hide his exasperation :/ but surprisingly, it was kinda fun. he kept trying to drill his mantra into my head: look far and wide, far and wide...it felt like i was seeing the lane and ahead of it, but not actually seeing. as if everything was ever so slightly out of focus. kinda feels like what i'm doing half the time, merely coursing through with little control. but anyway. i think i scared this poor motorcyclist shitless because the car simply drifted a little too close for comfort, towards him.

then went to BFF's house to bake for our dear mothers. heehee she's so cute. and yeah our cakes were damn cool-banana chocolate walnut cake which sort of became banana walnut chocolate lava cake because the melted chocolate had pooled at the bottom, in the middle of the cheesy heart-shaped cake.

8/5:
work was yawn. but i made plans to attempt an apple pie over the weekend. haha. attempt being the watch word here. i'm confused about the lattice pie crust though. looks like intensely complicated weaving shit to me.
edit-omggg eww. just drop dead and leave me the fuck alone.

happy birthday you

2008-05-02T22:58:00.004+08:00

HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY BAOWU!
i baked her cupcakes, after my namesake. they turned out surprisingly well...i hope!

-before shot. some were kinda pasty looking. haha oops. and my kitchen was like a freaking oven. singapore is too hot to be cool. srsly.

-and after! i think i could very possibly pursue a career as a pastry chef. or maybe just limit myself to cupcakes.

i would post utterly embarrasing shots of her, buttttt i happen to be a really nice friend and i don't have it on the lappie. oh wells.

so forgive me now?!?!?
(:

"working"

2008-04-28T16:29:00.003+08:00

edit--(new and improved with picturesss)
music:we used to be friends-the dandy warhols
mood:bored

so. i'm at work and i'm bored. that's not to say i don't have shit to do..more like i'd really rather do this. anywhoozers. update:

mambo-ed on wednesday. haha yeah my curfew was sorta lifted, sorta being the watch word here. went with yixiang and peihui. i like the YMCA. heh retarded much? yeah.

can you see the dinosaur/godzilla creature in sharpie on my java chip?! cool much? haha and yixiang threw a fit because his cup was blank.

thursday was wild wild wet again with mel! it was raining in the morning so we waited for the sun to shine again between breakfast and neoprints. haha kicked it old school for sure. i don't know, www was fun...but not as fun as the first time. guess the novelty of exactly 5 rides wore off. but shijie,mau and jun met us there and we could have started our very own synchronised swim team. too cool!

spent the weekend in malaysia and did--what else but a tv marathon? yeah. new series: torchwood. it's some sci-fi brit-eesh series. can you imagine how heart-breaked/disgusted i was when the cute captain of torchwood sucked face with this other dude?! tsk. the brits. what overly imaginative people.

OOH and i finally got a lap top! it's pretty. and shiny cool except i don't quite know how to properly use it yet. haha that's me, IT-stupid.

OH. and heh. my ex eye candy IT guy smiled at me!

go earth snake!

2008-04-19T23:02:00.005+08:00

music:sway-voxtrot
mood:euugh

haha that's a funny 'mood'. anyways,update!

firstly, a BEEG thankyou to kris for swapping shifts with me! but hey, i'm really doing you a favour, making up for all the MCs taken this month.

so anyways. it took this test to officially confirm that i'm perhaps more than a little confused. like, psychologically. if i was a shrink, i'd be concerned. and possibly scheming to take advantage of this cash cow.

my computer thing is so screwed up i've transferred all my music to this hard disk/drive/whatever and now i can't update my itunes because if i do the automatic sync thingy will just erase the rest of my songs now non-existent on the desktop YOU KNOW? i don't know.

i've always been skeptical of those corny ass feng shui masters but i don't know..i read this "2008 horoscope' by -insert chinese feng shui master chi-chi sounding name here- and i'm starting to think that maybe they do get some things right. apparently i'm an EARTH SNAKE, and it does sound pretty impressive. maybe. and the character profile seemed to fit, almost too well.

friday was movie night. me, mel and clara watched 'definitely, maybe'. i had no idea chick flicks could be confusing. i was convinced all along they were just complete brainless fluff. airy and light like cotton candy. pink too! i want to watch 'the other boelyn girl'. sibling rivalry sounds good, and better with a promise of an epic cat fight.

lunched with the baowu today! we talked a lot, what of exactly i can't really remember now. BUT the egg tart was shockingly edible. hahaha. i want pictures! date me soon kay.

then met cindy for a supposedly fruitful study session. we didn't actually get anything done till clara came along. haha. and i got bored studying for FTT after like page22. so i just sat and read 'namesake'. it's pretty good so far. then we dinnered at crystal jade, LA MEIN. yummm.

-i think i'm constantly, perpetually awkward. i soo need to grow out of it.
-someone point a big finger and give me direction and make everything fall into place. like a big jigsaw puzzle solver, or a traffic police, something.

recap

2008-04-13T21:16:00.006+08:00

music:always love-nada surf
mood:bloated

stuff happened, but i can't really remember what exactly. but i'm pretty sure something must have taken up my 24hours, every day.

well, wednesday was school. i really miss school :(( it feels so familiar and safe. me and shijie were there first so we took some pictures and came up with 3 eights worth of steps. haha we're so cool right, my funny friend! total geniuses really. and omg getting out of school was an adventure in itself. suffice to say, jun ended up being the only one WITHOUT disgustingly muddy feet. anyhow, shijie, jun, manda and me walked around PS and ate a lot of yummies! hahah.

and then thursday was dance with keisha and shijie. shijie baked me timtam cheesecake, upon my special request! AWW I LOVE YOU FRIEND. warm ups were tough as usual. and pathetic little me is still aching from it! :/

PAYDAY happened on friday! then after work met melmel for dinner. we wanted sushi but the queue was a mile long. thanks to SOME PEOPLE. haha. so we ended up at fish&co. we should seriously add hiphop artistes to our already impressive resume. we're just so talented at spitting out verses.

others:
-i got good news on one of the days in this week. i really hope things start to look up.
-is there a point in life where you realize your parents aren't the people you thought they were while growing up? somehow at a single moment, you suddenly see them flawed, and not entirely invincible. and recognise a lot of them in you.
-i may have deleted friendster. haha. got bored of it.
-i don't know if its the mood swing talking, but i've been pretty irascible these past few days. and i don't like being a grouch, but i can't seem to help it!
-just stay away? pretty please.
-someone sent me a virus :((((( and it took awhile to figure out what to do, being IT-stupid and all.
-I HAVE JUST FINISHED READING SURVIVOR by Chuck Palahniuk. i really, really like him. It's about this alledged sole survivor of a suicide cult recounting his life as he is plunging towards the ground in an airplane with its engines gone. You trace how from an obedient servant he later becomes a media whore. yeah.believe it. my favourite line :-

'Because the only difference between a suicide and a martyrdom really is the
amount of press coverage.'

Fall in love with his sharp social satire now.

schmexy

2008-04-05T15:00:00.005+08:00

music:sweet child o' mine-guns and roses
mood:perky

i've lost track of my days, is this what work does to you? a 12hour shift at work is no joking matter, i must have sent 1000 desperate pleas for rescue. please sign up for gmail and gmail chat with me, somebody, anybody? there are cute emoticons we could play around with :)

wed-
ding tai fung dinner with melmel! and haha yes. it was my first time there. i like their xiao long baobaos! and yes, we had a ton of gossip up for exchange.

us with our FIERCE looking ice-cream!

thurs-

work.

fri-

work. i think sometime this week i had a lot of disgruntled callers. but it must be my sexysweet voice that calmed them down. i mean, they thanked me properly at the end of it! like woah. oh and i traipsed down to bugis during lunch today. had no idea it was literally down the road! way cool.

sat-

ahhahahha. i went and permed my hair. omggg someone should have stopped me. it's so fucked up now. hahahaha. whatev.

i've been thinking-

i don't think i want to have children. i'm pretty sure im unable to love them unconditionally. and looking at my track record with pets/plants...not a good idea. and, i would hate to end up as a trophy wife obsessed with priming her trophy boy and girl.

AND i may have just realised, eyecandy ain't that cute afterall. eww :/

all you need is loveeee

2008-04-01T23:04:00.006+08:00

music:all my loving-across the universe ost
mood:sleepy

-this song is complete cuteness (: real sweet stuff.

haha it seems like i'm forever sleepy. BUT in my defense, i swear my mind is wide awake and frisky (heh sounds funny) but my eyelids won't halt their downward droop.

anyway. across the universe. finally watched it. but haha got interrupted like 3 times. and dudeee some graphic scenes. well sorta, a boob here, a boob there. my virgin eyessssss. HAHA. but it was good. i like jim sturgess! and since i'm such a sucker for sappy movie cliches, i obviously gushed over the end---jude sang 'all we need is love' on this rooftop and lucy heard and recognised him from a block away and came running back. AWW. but it was cool how the they made the plot fit a collection of the beatles songs into a seamless MOVICAL (movie-musical hahha)

work has been horrendously hectic the past few days. and today! was my first 12 hr shift. omfg. i was dying just as the clock came round to 4pm. imagine my utter dismay when (after some time) i calculated that i had 5 1/2 hours to go. hahaha kinda comical really. and i swear, some callers are SO NEUROTIC PARANOID. why do you need my card no?! i'm just asking a few questions so why should i give you my card no?! why?! why do you need to verify me?! why?! dude freaking chill. standard procedure. tsk.

okay. then the free-er part of my days are spent doing random personality quizzes. like these:

You Are a Banana

You are mellow, easy going, and a total softie on the inside.
People find it really easy to get along with you. You suit most tastes.
And while you're very sweet, you're not boring or ordinary.
You have an attraction to the exotic, and you could show up anywhere... doing almost anything!
You are spirited, energetic, and a total kick to be around.
You're also quite funny. Your sense of humor is on the goofy side, and it fits you well.

You Are a Comma

You are open minded and extremely optimistic. You enjoy almost all facets of life. You can find the good in almost anything. You keep yourself busy with tons of friends, activities, and interests. You find it hard to turn down an opportunity, even if you are pressed for time. Your friends find you fascinating, charming, and easy to talk to. (But with so many competing interests, you friends do feel like you hardly have time for them.)

You excel in: Inspiring people

You get along best with: The Question Mark

rant (v)

2008-03-27T23:30:00.004+08:00

music:rangers-a fine frenzy
mood:sleepy

maybe we don't want to be found
maybe we don't want to be found

thanks kris for this song! i really like this.

OMFG. i swear. the stupid CPF thingy is out to get all of our pays. it took me FOREVER to locate the opt out option for the medishield scheme and it wasn't where they said it would be! and all the while They were slowing draining my bank account of the hard earned cash. okay, maybe not exactly but i did think it was some huge conspiracy against me. They keep signing me up for shit without my permission, and then i have to go through all this trouble to opt out of the shit they signed me up for which takes up a lot of my preciously little time!

OH. and i've got another stalker. oh man. the dude gives me the creeps. interogative much? where is your office? what are your working hours? what is your extension number? what is your name? how do you spell it? what is your chinese name? how do you spell that? haha but before that 'he's such a stalker' thought it was the 'i bet he is a spy' thought. call me paranoid, but i really did think he was some secret service dude doing a background check on me and the company.

AND. i finished DEXTER season 1. dudeeeeee best series ever. omg i swear my heart literally stopped when i thought the ice truck killer was about to...but then dexter he...and they found out...and then the ice truck killer got...HAHA. spoiler.

yeahhhhhhh im sleepy. and aching from dance!

HEYS

2008-03-23T10:09:00.005+08:00

music:i'm yours-jason mraz
mood:sleepy

OMGGGG. i've got like a billion and one things to say. but these top my list:

1.I FINALLY SAW MY BABY OSCAR! and he's grown so so much. but he's really naughty, it makes me :( when he keeps gnawing at me.

2.DEXTER is fucking gooddddddd.

Based on Jeff Lindsay's novels Darkly Dreaming Dexter and Dearly Devoted Dexter
this crime thriller follows Dexter Morgan. Dexter is a forensic blood spatter
expert for the Miami Dade Police Department. He is the main support for his
sister. He has a steady girlfriend, with two kids who adore him. He also has an
active "night life". Based on a code instilled in him by his foster father,
Harry, he hunts down people who have escaped justice and makes sure they don't
get away with a crime again.

okay, DEXTER is essentially this serial killer who's unbelievably cool. and i'm tired because i stayed up till 4am watching DEXTERRRRRR. it's really twisted, but such a total guilty pleasure.

3. good friday holiday! i like my job, but i don't like having to work :/

4. HEYS. heehee.

5.sleepover at clara's last saturday. i learnt how to mahjong! ..sorta. and muchos laughter makes for good times (:

raindropdead

2008-03-13T22:18:00.002+08:00

music:she moves in her own way-the kooks
mood:tired

i love this song. haha the singer's accent is so cute. though i have no clue what he's singing about half the time.

it's not about your make-up
or how you try to shape up
to these tiresome paper dreams
paper dreams, honey

work's fun. i saw cute IT guy today. but damnit, my comp was in working order. still, maybe tomorrow...HAHA. but i'm so very stressed, especially when the calls start coming one after another, especially when my multi-tasking skills are at a near zero, especially...

joined kris at smu for dance yesterday and OMG. i was barely alive after WARM-freaking-UPS. like, pathetic much? and there was still 2 hours of tech and choreo to get through. but i survived, amazingly so. although, i'm aching pretty much all over.

and yeah that's all. i think.

i hate the rain. you can say it's soothing or whatever, but all i know is it gets into my shoes and skin. and then i'm cold inside out.

look alive, see these bones

2008-03-09T22:23:00.003+08:00

-what if i'm not, and can't
-they don't even know
-and we're both so good at faking normalcy

case update

2008-03-05T22:54:00.002+08:00

one-zzzomg. A level's results on FRIDAY. which is tomorrow tomorrow. which is too soon. which is unbelievably scary. fredferkel.

two-juno was really really good. and baowu is really really strange.

three-work is strangely fun! although i keep forgetting schtuff. haha and shijie tells me to use my 'sexy' voice. hell yeah!

four-psych season two. pure, unadulterated joy.

fudgeeeee

2008-03-01T22:29:00.003+08:00

music:setting up sunday-meg&dia
mood:iffy

-monday's sentosa recap thingy sometime later cos it needs pictures which have yet to appear from mel who brought the camera and basically is too lazy to send me them so i have nothing to show for the trip which was totally cool cos there were jump shots and the sand and the cool waters and i even got a tan out of it so wow.

1.eye candy is so infuriating. tsk. he sounds completely unenthused. is that even a word? i don't care.

2.i think i talk way too much sometimes, especially when i'm nervous. i should probably learn when to simply shut up.

3.i hate bugs and aluminium foil.

4.i ~~think~~ know i'm too proud. maybe i should settle for less.

5.i still don't know how/when to say no. i should practice?

6.i'm all envy for those who know exactly what they want, who are doing exactly what they want and who are exactly who they want to be.

setting up sunday
watching the winter grow so, oh, no
we're making excuses
for insecurities
it's not about me
oh, it's never about me

happy birthday

2008-02-21T22:31:00.005+08:00

music:the shake-my american heart
mood:okay

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINYI

here's an OLD WOMAN. haha imagine being 19 when most of us are still 18. but I LOVE YOU STILL XINEEEE! i hope you like this photo, hahah someone looks HOT there!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIJIE!

hahha we are such posers and there's me with my hair at a length i do not want to ever remember or see ever again. anyway. I LOVE YOU MY FUNNY FRIEND (f.sq) and you're like so old liaozzz.

HAHHA i have 43 friends on friendster now. but seriously, i don't understand friendster. if it wasn't for the whole b--n--r thingy, you would never catch me on it. or even facebook. bleh. but then again...B--N--R! hee. so cuteeeee.

finally finished 'the picture of dorian gray'. heh it took awhile because i kept re-reading whole paragraphs. it's really hard to read, but worth it. THE ENDING IS SOOO COOL. okay, so i might have peeked and read ahead. lessons learnt: vanity is evil. indulgence is immoral. influence is amoral. it's kind of frightening how much someone can influence you unknowingly. or worst, deliberately.

anddd i'm almost done with 'the handmaid's tale'. it's so twisted. hahah i seem to have a penchant for warped stories about sick people.

stuff happened, but it's an '-ed' so i'm feeling better now. is pretending the same as lying? because i'm getting pretty good at pretending everything's okay. but i've always been good at telling lies.

ular-lah!

2008-02-13T16:41:00.004+08:00

music:prophecy-remy zero
mood:sleepy

monday
wild wild wet with mel!

haha like,finally. i love the u-slide thingy, real fun. haha and i dared mel not to scream on the way down, and her constipated face was all i could see while "free falling" down the slope. she's so cute. but omg the ah bengs were sooo annoying in between their attempts to capsize me and splash us with water. like wth?! and the lifeguards too! big bullies. but yeah we finally got our tan! sorta...sentosa soon okay! OH then after the million stairs and ass heavy floats we climbed and carried, i went for lyrical jazz class. almost died. didn't help that it was hard! but it's okay. we'll show him next week what we're made of! yeah!

tuesday
lazed around, went post chinese new year shopping with the mother before meeting the keewei after. she's really strange. but yeah thanks for the pressie. and the scarf's cool okay. you just don't know how to properly appreciate it. pfft

today
dance at school. and PEOPLE were late for breakfast. tsk. anyway, dinner later with family (: okay bye.

om shanti shanti

2008-02-10T20:26:00.000+08:00

music:be my escape-relient k
mood:happy

so i disappeared to malaysia for chinese new year but i'm back now. yay. anyway--short update or whatever.

+chinese new year goodies
+red packets
-the ang pao money goes directly to my university fund. i didn't even get to smell the new, crisp notes ):
-feeling like a stranger and awkward for a second with extended family
+but then everything becomes comfortable and we laugh and talk easy
-everyone asking about A's results. fuckkkkkk.

cause i've been housing all this doubt and insecurity

+me and my cousin finally talked after 3498461285 years
+i had my aunt's new puppy oscar for a day ((((((: he's my baby!
AWWWW.

-oscar belongs to my aunt who lives across the causeway ))))):
+spent most of my time watching season 3 of the office. sooo good
+HAHAH and we watched music&lyrics and i particularly liked the cora chick singing that buddha song "om shanti shanti" like wtf. but i think that entire scene was a social commentary on how hollywood has celebritised (new word,my word) religion. look at madonna and kabbalah. OR maybe it's purely a chick flick and not that high-brow.
+i've been reading ferociously for the past weeks and i've got an exciting new book--the picture of dorian gray
-i don't know what it is, but something's got my entire family extremely irritable with each other

+i've finally got my pay!

-it's only a part of it. tsk.

-and i start work AGAIN on thurs. bleh

+the miss lynette a lot (MiLAL) club's been set up with shijie as president! new members welcome. hahha.

so overall, i'd say chinese new year this year was pretty good, seeing as how there are more pluses than minuses. OM SHANTI SHANTI.

blah

2008-02-04T23:15:00.000+08:00

music:runaway-mae
mood:content

uh. momentary mental block.

oh. had dinner with some of the dancers on friday night which was fun and then shijie and jun slept over not before some DRAMAZ yeah capitalized for effect haha we didn't end up doing what we were supposed to do but we watched 'the search for the next pussy cat doll' and stalked people on friendster and omgggggg i've found eye candy heh and seriously contemplated signing up on friendster so that i could just add him but pity we couldn't find jun/jean's cute guy yeah and thank you shijie's mommy for the pineapple tarts yeah then went to malaysia over the weekend which was pretty fun thanks to food and dvds--'the office' and 'heroes' before coming back today for hiphop just now haha me mau and manda formed an alliance--those who suck at hiphop but yeah fun stuff the dancers are going to the night safari next thursday yay haven't been there in eons so can't wait but before that i'll be going back to malaysia tomorrow which is pretty odd but it's all thanks to my mom's grand chinese new year plan.

wow longest sentence EVER. and shijie's still holding my eeyore captive! SAVE THE EEYORE. hahahhaa.

anyway, i've been thinking. i should just stop thinking. everything's much easier that way.

AND I'M SUPER ENVIOUS OF PEOPLE/DANCERS WITH MORE TALENT IN THEIR PINKY THEN ALL OF ME COMBINED. sigh

lalala

2008-01-31T21:42:00.000+08:00

music:happy birthday-the click five
mood:happy

haha i love this song. it's my guilty pleasure. heh. so is kyle patrick (:

anyway. mel wanted me to blog about HER so here goes:
we met for breakfast as usual. heh i like how fast we decide on what to eat, and we've made it our mission to have breakfast at every place possible. anddd i think we've almost accomplished that! and yeah usual gossip and el-oh-el (LOL) session. she's so retarded srsly. but i love you MEL, MY TWINNIE. and our wild,wild wet trip must happen!

anddd i've some other stuff to say but i need to pick my daddyo from the airport now sooooo.
byebye.

MOPEMOPEMOPE

2008-01-30T22:21:00.000+08:00

-OMG. i was THIS close to getting a puppy today. like literally this close. ugh. but this AUNTIE had to tell my mom how puppies chew holes in carpets and what not. BLEH.

-american gangsters was good. denzel washington's amazing. i know drugs are bad and all, but is it wrong if i was rooting for him, the drug kingpin? ehh. russell crowe just seems like a total sleaze ball. but there were lots of boobs flashing throughout the movie. weird.

-met up with BFF on monday! hahah she's so unglam it's absolutely impossible to believe. loveeee.

-i'm kinda confused, so much so i dream about it. like wth?!

-dance today was good, we're almost done! okay. only sorta.

-i got my podster back! yay. im a happy kid. i swear i could've hugged it.

-i'm on to supernatural season3! heh. jared padalecki's still a cutie. loveeee. although, this season doesn't seem as scary..which is fine by me. heh.

I ALMOST GOT A PUPPY TODAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
)))))):

charm your way out

2008-01-27T23:35:00.000+08:00

music:sixteen military wives-the decemberists
mood:elated

You Would Be a Pet Bird

You're intelligent and witty, yet surprisingly low maintenance.You charm people easily, and they usually love you a lot more than you love them.You resent anyone who tries to own or control you. You refuse to be fenced in.
Why you would make a great pet: You're very smart and entertaining
Why you would make a bad pet: You're not interested in being anyone's pet!
What you would love about being a bird: Flying, obviously
What you would hate about being a bird: Being caged

What Kind of Pet Would You Be?

haha. me and shijie are so cool. she's a puppy though! and that's much cuter than a stinking avian. eww.

AND WORK'S OVER. whee

tragic affair

2008-01-26T22:46:00.000+08:00

music:i'm not okay-my chemical romance
mood:))))):

MY IPOD'S BEEN KIDNAPPED, AND IS GONNA REMAIN SO FOR ANOTHER 4 DAYS. and i'm feeling so lost now, after being separated from it for all of 30mins. )))): i don't know how i'm gonna make it through to wednesday!

i'm not okay
haha i love this song.

AND AM I THE ONLY PERSON WHO FOUND OUT HEATH LEDGER'S DEAD TODAY?! omg. tragic.

anywhoo. i fell in love today. with this cute little 8 year old boy who stole my heart when he stumbled over the words 'sensitive skin'. awww. i wanted to steal him away at that moment ((((: too cute.

OH. and wednesday was a class reunion thingy and keewei/baowu owes me cool photos. but wednesday was ridiculous. had dance practice which went really well! and then had to rush home before rushing again to dinner. at least i wasn't the latest! yay.

haha we look so cool and dead and scary.

AND. this UNCLE asked if i was a MAINLAND CHINESE GIRL. like what?! cos apparently my chinese is accented. well i guess i should be consoled by the fact that my chinese can't be half bad then, if he thought i was CHEENA.

ALSO friday was kinda cool because i had many surprises (:

i don't understand her sometimes.

stuffs.

2008-01-19T22:29:00.000+08:00

music:don't look back in anger-oasis
mood:sleepy

i'm too tired to be coherent and blahblahblah..so point form:

-i'm still blinded by the whole view of this random lady's very white ass.

-this other lady actually clucked to call her husband over, and he actually heard her from 200m away. talk about hen-pecked. HAHAHAHHAH

-i finished 'vanishing acts' and realised i like novels where everything falls into place in the end, perfectly packaged and tied up with a neat little bow. it's a little reassuring, that everything will work out in the end.

-i think i'm pretty anti-social. lunching with "colleagues" is an awkward affair, particularly since all conversation is in chinese. i probably should have paid more attention during chinese lessons.

-RANT ALERT 1: apparently i'm not a girl enough. this OTHER lady asked which colour foundation she should use and i said hesitantly ivory something or other and she said annoyingly that that was too white a colour for her. LIKE HELLOOOO LADY DO YOU NEED A MIRROR?! your face IS white. and other colours would look freakish. tsk. sooo apparently i don't know anything about cosmetics and such. whateverrrrrrr.

-27 dresses is really good! i like katherine heigl. and james marden. and them together in the end (((: work would be sooo much better if i had eye candy ))):

-'i don't know' is the most over-used phrase for me because it means i don't have to think.

-i am gonna meditate on the picture of jared padalecki aka the cute sensitive dude from supernatural. maybe then i'll dream of him. heehee.

-RANT ALERT 2: i submitted this application thingy for this secondary school for relief teaching and i was rejected. but what pisses me off most is that it reads: dear shu ling, we are sorry to inform you that we do not have any vacancies for relief teachers. WTF. WHO IS SHU LING?!?!?!? growl. FINE I DON'T WANT TO BE RELIEVING YOUS ANYWAY.

-AND that colleague of mine said i was pretty because of my face shape. LIKE WHAT? what about my eyes? or other stuffs?!?!?! tsk.tsk.tsk.

okay, i'm done.

el-oh-el

2008-01-16T11:58:00.000+08:00

music:put your records on-corinne bailey rae
mood:sleepy

this song's soothing.
you're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow

i'm reading this book called 'vanishing acts' and it seems to be very chick lit, not that i'm complaining though.

i remember that for one moment, i believed that i was hitchhiking on one of
those comets, falling so fast that i'd surely burn away before i ever hit the
ground.

heh. how adorable.

anyway. watched one missed call yesterday. it was such a crappy horror flick in that it wasn't all THAT scary. haha the funniest scene had to be the one where a priest was trying to exorcise a ghost from the cellphone. it looked too comical. and the himbo certainly lived up to his name, he shopped and i, a girl didn't. shocker.

then me and shijie slept over at manda's not before stopping by cold rock (HAHA 'MANDAYY'). i like the gummibears hidden in my icecream and the swing set that made me and shijie slightly sea sick. planning the zombies/killer dolls dance was real exciting though, we've got really cool ideas that i hope will turn out right. but but but i want you to dance true friend! ): haha we spent most part of the night laughing at pictures of people which was good fun (:

and hahahhaha. this song was playing on my ipod where the intro was some voicemail thingy. 'you have one missed call...' like el-oh-el!

sometimes i feel my heart trembling to burst out into a foreign song but i can't quite hear it and i can't understand it.

I'M SLEEPYYYYYY.

whine alert!

2008-01-14T22:18:00.000+08:00

music:be sensible-jimmy eat world
mood:troubled

the peihui told me to update so here goes:

my first instinct is to whine and bitch about my job but it seems to be all i ever do. euugh i'm such an annoying human.
it sucks to be only just mediocre especially when there's so little room for people who are only just okay.
i'm having a hard time separating the things i actually want from the things i know others want for me. except, i don't even have the slightest idea what i want.
sometimes, i want to not be taken so seriously.

anyway, i had the strangest, freakiest dream ever that involved a person repeatedly yanking on my ponytail. like what?!?! i don't understand how my brain works. it seems like it never sleeps. bleh. all i want next christmas, is dreamless and uninterrupted sleep.

edit-big thankyous to ashmit for breakfast on sat, shije mau jun stephen for coming to visit me on sun!

conscience

2008-01-12T21:47:00.000+08:00

music:all you need is love-the beatles
mood:tired

heavy downpour means less customers. less customers mean little talking. little talking means more time spent in my head.
-i wish i could be a better person
-humans are impossible

i found out i like going for walks while listening to my podster. although it would be more fitting for the movie screens if it were cold starry night.

ps: tom yum is YUM.

weird people and weirder dreams

2008-01-10T22:52:00.000+08:00

music:dismantle.repair-anberlin
mood:tired

8jan--
hahaha i think i'm pretty horrible at keeping secrets and surprises, but thankfully its shijie we were trying to surprise (i'm not implying anything!) so me and jun managed to successfully surprise her at work. and woahhhh i've never ever been to tampines mall before! so happening siazxxx. anyhow, we seoul-garden-ded after that...we make good chefs with incredibly innovative recipes that may or may not give you a tummy ache. heh.

9jan--
ice skating with jun, shijie, the himbo and my brother. haha me, jun and The Fishball had a little drawing competition while waiting for the slowpokes and jun definitely is the BEST artist EVER. anyhow. met keish and her class at the rink, of all places. CINDYYYYYYY. hoho.

10jan--
freaking work again. bleh. BUT i improved from last thurs although still managing to fall below my quota. hey, it takes skill okay! oh, but hahahha last night, i dreamt my mother was this tyrant and everyone hid from her in this secret annex except they wouldn't let me in simply because she was my mother which is completely unfair but then i finally proved my innocence and they let me in. wow longest sentence ever.

doesn't it suck when you think you know this person and in the
next minute see a complete stranger?

hey, guess what. WORK TOMORROW!

work fricking sucks.

2008-01-07T22:09:00.000+08:00

music:feeling this-blink 182
mood:tired

HAHA. how ironic. im feeling OLD now, with itunes playing 'feeling this'. i never thought it would suck to hit 18, or even-dare i say it-19 this year. things that make me feel old:

1) work.
shit, the adults weren't kidding when they said work is helluva worse than school. if it weren't for the money...i keep chanting in my head:paydaypaydaypayday. bleh. and srsly. aunties and ah mas need to learn to have a little respect for us poor promoters here! it's really a humbling job. note: you don't have to completely ignore us. but thanks to clement, leilei and peewee for visiting me and buying a box or two of hairdye!
2)dance.
jazz class today with manda,shijie,mau,vk,keisha. it was pretty good but it appears that i'm so totally out of shape! my arms are trembling from today's class and it's a pretty safe bet i'll be aching tomorrow!

anyway. other stuff happened--
2jan:met up with the BFF kisha after job training to catch up, watch i am legend and exhange belated xmas gifts. oh yeah and our little book club. it's so funny how we both cringed and cried at the same moments (:
3-6jan: work ))))))))): but! breakfasts with mel and on sunday with baowu/keewei made the days start off great!
today: spring cleaning in my room. at the end of it (it took me a grand total of 3.5hours) i had 5 trash bags to show for my efforts. it's scary how much can accumulate in 4 years--cobwebs, junk, memories.

this must be the new year

2008-01-01T22:11:00.000+08:00

music:together we'll ring in the new year-motion city soundtrack
mood:awake

cindy's costume party

HAPPY (belated) 18th CINDYYY. you're like, finally 18 and can drive. sorry your costume party didn't turn out as you wanted, but you gotta admit, me and mel won the contest hands down! so where's our vouchers! haha.

i love you truckloads cin! dance has been really fun with youuuuu and your retardedness (:

greek masterpieces @ the national museum

haha. i finally got to wear my shades out. just too cool for words yo.

i swear, the grecians are the single most imaginative people ever. the lust, incest, betrayal, jealousy woven into their mythology makes for a highly entertaining soap opera. DRAMA! oh and its comforting to know that men come before women who then come before children, children being the lowest form of life to walk the earth...or something. heh.

new year's
spent new year's eve with family friends, and fittingly, a Friends marathon. i love joey and phoebe! it was comfortable. michelle quoted death cab's song 'the new year'--

So this is the new year
And i don't feel any different

its really sad but true, and the same goes for birthdays. but i've still accordingly made my new year's resolutions:

1)to keep secrets

2)to be more decisive

at the crossroad where so many possibilities lie ahead and heavenward. some road signs would be nice.

don't they know it's christmas?

2007-12-28T22:35:00.000+08:00

music:under the gun-the killers
mood:confused

happy xmastime everyone! spent in MALAYSIA with the family (: seeing everyone around the table heavy with food, the christmas tree with its winking lights and carefully wrapped and chosen presents spilling out from underneath it...it just fills me with a warm, fuzzy feeling! ANDDD. i've got the most awesomest pajamas ever! red pjs with reindeers all over. heehee. im literally wrapped in christmas (:

and HAPPY 18th CLARAHHHH! wo ai ni hen duo!

haha she's so cute there! i hope you enjoyed your birthday, next time we WILL go ice skating! haha and maybe sky diving too?

no wonder sleep deprivation is a torture technique. because yesterday, after 39 hours without sleep, i was ready to break ): but im feeling much better now. someone reminded me of the meaning of my name that's framed and hung above my bed, and i guess it makes sense. i think the last one probably got me expecting too much from others and leaves me disappointed. but whatever! thank god for the friends i can talk to.

lynette: a person who believes in being joyful, does not stray from the
path she's chosen for herself, always seems calm and composed, brings sunshine
into the lives of many, appreciates thoughtfulness in others

haha what do you think of that? guess i'm pretty damn near perfect. KIDDING.

--my bed is mine because its where i leave my troubles and fears at night.

everyone on the dance floor!

2007-12-23T19:27:00.000+08:00

music:stop and stare-one repulblic

mood:amused

dirty dancing:havana nights

ooh its so good. i wish i could dance like that &diego luna is adorable in this. he makes me want to learn spanish (:

my favourite scene--he was teaching katey how to sway her hips 'in a circle, a circle...that's a box' heehee. SO CUTE.

BUT. i hate the ending. it's so open-ended and just leaves me hanging. there had better be a sequel called dirty dancing 2 or something like that!

'dancing is about being exactly who you want to be in that moment'

nintendogs

haha. i borrowed (stole) my brother's DS and played the only game i could--nintendogs. it's the lamest shit ever, but the puppies are kinda cute. AND you can walk them, and teach them tricks, and enter them in competitions...yeah. i was thoroughly entertained for half an hour.

anyhow. i've got an interview tomorrow, for a job as a promoter for some hair dye. god, i need a job badly.

ohmygod. it's like deja vu one whole year later :/ one smile and i'm pretty much obsessing already. damnit.

HOLYDAYS

2007-12-20T21:34:00.000+08:00

music:kiss kiss-chris brown

mood:dog tired

chiang mai

whee. i love chiang mai! with food+shopping so cheap, who wouldn't? plus, the weather was just right for me, not too hot and not too cold either. but i'll let the pictures speak for themselves.

thailand's unique form of transportation, the tuk-tuk. &somehow, our family of 4 managed to squeeze into the backseat made to seat 2 comfortably. woah.

tamarind village. i think its so pretty how the 2 rows of bamboo curve gently towards each other.

the gay parade. they were actually willing to sing and dance if we paid them.

me and lil marky boy at the orchid farm. heehee he's so cute, all of him!

he's bonding with the baby elephant! isn't that so aww.

with the hill tribe children. that's their playground. i don't think they need themeparks and rollercoasters if they have that in their 'backyard'!

Mok's birthday

happy 18th mok! it was held at the martini firm, which would explain why there were so many different martinis. haha i only realised it much later. KRIS PICTURES!

Ladies night

ehhh.i felt so cheated. turns out eve of public holiday=no ladies night+full house at almost everywhere! bleh. but finally, at like 1, xinyi mau shijie jun and me ended up at butterfactory with a bunch of other random people. and omgggg all of us died, except for that crazy xinyi of course. i was actually sleeping by the road at like 6 in the morning!

yeahhhh. i need a job, fast.

cheer up, emo kid

2007-12-12T00:56:00.000+08:00

music:cancer-my chemical romance
mood:tired

so. my chemical romance tonight. call them scene or emo or whatever, but i like them. and because of something that happened earlier today, when they played cancer and helena ("the funeral song"), it felt so fucking good. &ray toro is AMAZING.

but whatever. i need to pack.

prom drama queen

2007-12-11T00:08:00.000+08:00

music:all of this for you-sevenglory
mood:sleepy

so prom was pretty fun. well not the actual thing itself, but the pre/post part of prom night. i definitely loved just sitting in the salon chair while my make up and hair are being done. yeah i'm a total girly girl, so sue me. and then of course clubbing! felt really good, especially after such a long time (: heh. and OH. manda-my true friend was crowned prom queen! soo cool. i love you true friend! anywhoo pics below:

keewei,me,mel

me,devanshi,keewei in the hotel room

mau and me. HAPPY 18th MAU! thanks for acting surprised! haha. we tried to keep the cake hidden, but apparently not good enough.

keewei and me at mos

and HORRORS of horrors. i got my hair CUT & COLOURED. now i looking like a fricking ah lian with SHORT hair. bleh. on top of that, i spent the weekend with some korean drama, bawling my eyes out. like what?! i gross myself out sometimes.

yeahhhh. and im off to chiang mai on wed, with no clue when i'll be back. its either the 15, or 16, or 17. heh. good fun.

go shawty

2007-11-25T23:03:00.000+08:00

music:sway-the perishers
mood:tired

so. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to keisha, mel , my brother and i. the morning itself i was pleasantly surprised by cake at my doorstep. obviously i stood at the door with my mouth agape for a good one minute. maybe. soo unglam. anyways. a BIG THANKYOU to xuanting BFF, BAOWU, rachhhh, peewee, clar-rahhh. then later met the og peoples at swensens, followed by a little shopping and movie. then had dinner with ah ting and watched secret. jay chou at his finest, only not really. it was unbelievably cheesy! zzzomg.

the cake that gave me diarrhoea for 20 days. haha kidding. thanks BAOWU. it was surprisingly yummy and edible :)

flowers that will never die!

i heart babies. don't they just make you melt? this little thing was what i went to KL for. oh and it was precisely on the coach to KL when i realised i'd grown up. i was bored 5 mins into the cartoon sequel of sleeping beauty! pretty good ay.

--ooh. and i finally read 'fight club' by chuck palahniuk. it was disturbing but so good. the twist at the end totally blew my mind. i want to watch the movie. anddd despite the graphic violence, sex and what-not, the sappy romantic in me sees a love story embedded within:

"It's not love or anything," Marla shouts, "but I think I like you,
too."
One minute.
Marla likes Tyler.
"No, I like you," Marla shouts. "I know the difference."

do the stars gaze back?

2007-11-17T20:16:00.000+08:00

music:romeo & juliet-the killers
mood:happy

so. i hate how it's bio p3 on monday when i haven't touched the syllabus in EONS. which means now's a good time to start as any. mmphff.

open house today and the dancers went back to look-see. apparently we are pretty convincing as sec4s. too cool. we danced/jumped a little in the teeny studio. i miss it now! me and keish were surprised by cake!

3 days to....!
heh.

then we crystal jade-ded. xiao long bao was bleh though :( omg. STARDUST was so good. nothing like a happy ending to make you feel all warm and fuzzy inside :)

warning: cheesefest
I can't do the talk like they talk on tv
And I can't do a love song like the way its meant to be
I cant do everything but I'd do anything for you
I cant do anything except be in love with you

I said I love you like the stars above
I'll love you till I die
There's a place for us, you know the movie song

-altogether now: awww.

just rain on me

2007-11-13T14:33:00.000+08:00

music:my saving grace-armor for sleep
mood: mmff :(

i understand but it doesn't make it feel any better.
i'm second-guessing myself

this is so primary school -.-

i don't knowwwwwwwww.
on a side note, my brother's being a complete A-HOLE. he's confiscated my
remote for the air-con (wtf?!) and it's uncomfortably warm even with the
fan on.

i can cook!

2007-11-09T10:37:00.000+08:00

music:big casino-jimmy eat world
mood:bored

top: mel and i made dinner for ourselves. a full three-course meal. for real. soup, salad and pasta.
middle: cool pasta shapes! car, plane, train, motorcycle. we're too cool.
bottom: haha just a subtle reminder for myself. to STAY AWAKE. it works :)

i've only just officially hit the halfway mark. meh. many more days to go :/

emoticon :(

2007-10-20T10:04:00.000+08:00

music:left and leaving-the weakerthans
mood:harried

my city's still breathing (but barely it's true)
through buildings gone missing like teeth
the sidewalks are watching me think about you
sparkled with broken glass
I'm back with scars to show
back with the streets I know
will never take me anywhere but here
the stain in the carpet
this drink in my hand
the strangers whose faces I know
we meet here for our dress-rehearsal to say
"I wanted it this way"
wait for the year to drown
spring forward, fall back down
I'm trying not to wonder where you are
all this time lingers, undefined
someone choose who's left and who's leaving
memory will rust and erode into lists of all that you gave me:
a blanket, some matches, this pain in my chest
the best parts of Lonely, duct-tape and soldered wires
new words for old desires
and every birthday card I threw away
I wait in 4/4 time
Count yellow highway lines that you're relying on to lead you home

r4nd0m

2007-10-14T23:42:00.001+08:00

music:ruthless-something corporate
mood:worried

-i love something corporate. i could definitely listen to them endlessly. and maybe i will :)

-it sounds really stupid but i probably overanalyze way too much, and hate for others to hate me. is that low self-esteem? or just my obnoxiously large ego.

-i'm embarrassingly confused about my z's and s's. i use them interchangably, and wrongly too. english crash course 101 please!

-2weeks. not long or short enough. there's so much studying that needs to be done, yet my ADD wants A's to just be over and done with.

-am i a nerd if chemistry seems to be more fun than it should?

-i really should be on a hiatus like everyone else.

-i'm constantly adding to my 'after-A's-when-i-actually-start-living-to-do-list'.

-i really should be studying :/

exam-obsessed

2007-10-08T19:30:00.000+08:00

music:the saddest song-the ataris
mood:stressed. haha

-my weekend was kinda ehhh :(
-i'm really such a bad person. but i should get points readded if i admit it right?
-i'm possibly the biggest procrastinator alive
-whining's kinda my thing now
-studying with jolene tomorrow!

when
all
we
know
is
falling
.

exams should just start and end now. ughh.

braindrain

2007-10-01T19:41:00.000+08:00

music:99-fightstar

mood:tired

ever feel like your head might just implode with all the thoughts racing through at 300km/h? yeahhh it doesn't feel too pretty. it's just...everything. and it gives me a head-ache :/

anywhoo. met up with ashmit on saturday. it was fun, army sounds a lot more interesting than it's sometimes made out to be. but i bet being called for the malaysian national service would blow. i don't even understand a word of malay. and i'm pretty sure 'please don't step on the grass' wouldn't be applicable anywhere. and yeah, i still can't wrap my head round the whole 18 and married thing. evidently i'm not that much of a romantic.

HAPPY 18TH KISHA YEO XUANTING!

heh. i hope it gets better :)

anddd i need to give you your super useful present.

she's too cute!

aside:i hate the feeling of feeling swamped. and that sounded really funny.

2007-09-25T20:55:00.000+08:00

music:tie a rope-the format
mood:accomplished (finished my geepoo essay!)

SATURDAY
went rollerblading on saturday afternoon with the usual people (cough keisha) -manda, mau, shijie. it was fun but kinda tiring. our lack of stamina showed rather pitifully. AND. shijie got sunburnt while nothing happened to me. &($*&! when i'm just as white as she is! manda and i dyed our hair a passion mahogony that doesn't show up at all, with mau and shijie as our professional hair peoples (yeah stylists i know). then went for the NUS dance reflections. 'despise me if you dare', but i thought the swan park item was really cute! yes they were reminiscent of something else...but its quirky and fun on its own. needless to say, zaki and zaini's items were pretty much the stand out items--opening and finale.

TODAY
haha. i had the weirdest dream last night. maybe its my preoccupation with getting tanned skin, but i dreamt i was badly sunburnt. damn. for a split second i was seriously delirious with joy. or something. then i magically morphed into darth vader confessing all my sins to a moss-covered wall. i don't know about you, but i'm all admiration for my brain.

-erps. i think i'm a really bad person. don't trust me :/

also, i really need to start making decisions for myself. i say we start with deciding what to eat for the next meal. baby steps.

so you run away for no apparent reason
cause you and i are changing with the seasons
i might have a little obsession with the format, all over again.

2007-09-18T21:47:00.000+08:00

music:coming home-city and colour
mood:satisfied

our 6-hour-pride&prejudice-marathon that was supposed to enhance our understanding of the text. key word: supposed to. i just basically spent the whole time swooning over the Darcy/Elizabeth romance and criticising the actors, as well as pointing out the excessive amount of cleavage on display. i love charlene's condo! ooh im sooo gonna learn the cockney accent and be all brit-eesh and posh. innit'

i think we look kindaaaa alike. which is terribly scary.

we're all still kids at heart. comforting, no?

today was fun (:

on a side note, i want a piglet for a pet, to love and cuddle. i think 'kitty kat' will be such a rockin' name for my baby pig. no?

2007-09-14T20:09:00.000+08:00

music:stay awake-all time low
mood:i've got the munchies!

in short--

so. prelim's is almost over, with just biology left on monday. yay. although, it was really over for me after math P2 on wednesday.

and thursday was spent on supernatural. haha. guilty as charged. well i've finally finished season2, and im sooo looking forward to season3. meanwhile i've psych to tide me over. teevee is my addiction, unabashedly.

if 'dedication takes a lifetime but dreams only last for a night',
i should probably stay awake.

2007-09-08T20:57:00.000+08:00

music:check yes juliet-we the kings
mood:bloated

it's funny how my toes can touch the swimming pool floor with my chin safely above the water now, when 11 years ago i almost drowned at that very same spot.
it's a little comforting to know how much i've grown. i feel like i should be able to tilt my head back, stare up at the azure sky ahead and not have to worry about anything.
but there's a whole future to work out. and then i feel like i'm 6 years old all over again.

likeeee i should be studying my ass off right about now.

run
baby
run.

-edit:no wonder i'm bloated.my tummy's threatening to explode with gas and my dad's down with food poisoning. stupid japanese restaurant. sashimi was good though.

2007-09-02T19:48:00.000+08:00

music:iron in the backseat-daphne loves derby
mood:refreshed

one word: supernatural. haha friday and sunday pretty much spent with eyes glued to the tv screen. i hear it's not too healthy, that much teevee. which may explain my inability to sleep due to the constant mental replay of scenes from the show at night. oh wells. we've all got our fixes.

ooh and i make a pretty kickass waitress, spent saturday helping out at my aunt's cafe.

soo monday spells start the of furious revision. here we go :/

call us out on our mistakes
call them all just fun and games
we act and we act all over again
but it's all the same

2007-08-30T16:13:00.000+08:00

music:six feet under the stars-all time low

mood:perky

first up- happy 18th nietz! good god girl. it's been a whirl wind grand total of 5 years knowing you. granted, not all five were spent in constant company with each other but the distance makes the heart grow fonder. or something. Best Friends Forever. totally. haha. and guess what. expect me in canada sometime next year (: i hope it's not so cold when i get there!

haha remember our crepes? cool shit yo'

and we looked so young back in year8. guess we've changed a lot since huh.

ps: i sent you a really cool e-card. the real card via snail mail's gonna have to wait a while. i'll make sure i get it to you before my birthday. haha

anddd we've hit the september hols. supernatural marathon! in between study breaks of course. i contribute it to stress (whatever), but i'm rolling my eyes at everyone and everything way too often. i should probably stop especially since my eyeballs feel a little loose around their sockets.

but there's room for two

six feet under the stars

2007-08-18T01:09:00.000+08:00

coolios.
ch-ch-ch-check it out.
my new layout signalling my absence till after prelims,
hopefully.